Still don’t see me

I was just a kid with tears behind my eyes

Tryin’ to stay quiet through the yelling every night

Always blamed first, even when I tried

Carried all the weight while they stood by

Being the oldest meant I had to grow fast

Had to be the strong one, couldn’t ever crack

They took my childhood and they can’t give it back

Now I wear the pain like scars in black

Pre-Chorus

And I kept askin’ why

Why love felt so hard to find

In a house where I was supposed to feel safe

But every word just cut like a blade

Chorus

I gave my heart to people who let it break

Spent my whole life beggin’ them to change

I was just a child, I didn’t deserve the blame

But they still treated me wrong anyway

And even now I’m still the one

Who never feels like I’m enough

I’m the oldest child but somehow

Still invisible to the ones I love

Verse 2

Every birthday felt a little cold

Every memory hurts more as I grow old

I learned real quick how to hide my soul

When your own family makes you feel alone

I watched other kids get the love I missed

Simple things like hugs or being listened to

Now I overthink every little thing

‘Cause pain like that sticks onto you

Pre-Chorus

But I’m done carryin’ shame

For the storms that they created

I survived the nights that almost broke me

Now my voice ain’t scared to say it

Chorus

I gave my heart to people who let it break

Spent my whole life beggin’ them to change

I was just a child, I didn’t deserve the blame

But they still treated me wrong anyway

And even now I’m still the one

Who never feels like I’m enough

I’m the oldest child but somehow

Still invisible to the ones I love

Bridge

Maybe one day they’ll finally see

What their words did to me

But if they never understand

I’ll still learn how to stand

I’ll build a life that feels like home

Even if I build it alone

Final Chorus

I gave my heart to people who let it break

But I won’t let their pain decide my fate

Yeah, I’m still hurt, but I’m healing every day

And their darkness doesn’t own my name

I’m the oldest child, yeah I carried it all

But I’m still standing after every fall

And one day I’ll find the love

I spent my whole life wishing for