[Verse 1] I’ve been quiet in the doorway, Watching life pull you away. You’re somewhere in the distance, Even when you’re in the same place. And I hate that I’m the one who Feels invisible like this… But you stack your world in layers, And I fall through the midst. [Pre-Chorus] And I’m praying for the strength Not to break under the weight… [Chorus] ’Cause I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. Trying not to disappear while loving you forever, Trying not to need more than you can give. And I know you don’t mean to leave me in the silence— But it’s lonely in the spaces you forget exist. So I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together… When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. ⸻ [Verse 2] Feels like everything surrounds you— Work and worries, kids and plans. And I’m cheering from the sidelines ’Cause I know you’re doing all you can. But sometimes I miss the version Where I wasn’t just the “when I can.” Where loving me was easy, Not another thing to cram. [Pre-Chorus 2] And I’m fighting off the feeling That I’m slowly disappearing… ⸻ [Chorus] ’Cause I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. Trying not to disappear while loving you forever, Trying not to need more than you can give. And I know you don’t mean to leave me in the silence— But it’s lonely in the spaces you forget exist. So I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together… When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. ⸻ [Bridge] I don’t want to harden just to cope— I don’t want to love you from a distance. I don’t want to teach my heart to live With half of your attention. I just want the moments back Where I wasn’t scared of missing Every chance to be seen In the life we’re living. ⸻ [Chorus (slightly lifted at the end for emotional release)] So I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. Trying not to fade away while loving you forever— Trying not to want more than you can give. And I know you don’t mean to leave me in the silence… But I’m learning how to breathe where I still exist. Yeah, I’m trying to learn how to hold myself together… When I feel like I’m the last thing on your list. ⸻ [Soft Outro (Madison Beer–style breathy whisper)] I don’t want to lose us… I just don’t want to lose me.

Last On Your List