Hold It In

(Modern R&B/Pop/Rap – Emotional & Soulful)

They say, “Be strong,” but fuck I’m breaking inside,

Been wearin’ this mask, shit it’s startin’ to slide.

Look in the mirror, don’t know who I see,

A man in the shadows, but that man ain’t me.

“You’re a rock” they say, don’t let ‘em see you fall,”

But even the strongest of men get tired of it all.

Smiling when I’m drowning, laughing through the pain,

But silence is turning into chains.

I hold it in,

But shit what if I let it go? Would you love me then?

If I break down, if I cave in,

Would you still be here, or would you leave again?

Fuck, they say real men don’t cry, gotta keep it inside,

But I’m losin’ my mind, tryna swallow my pride.

how do you heal when you’re numb to the pain?

Shit Every night, different fight, but the story’s the same.

Smilin’ for the ‘Gram like I got no fears,

But I ain’t felt nothin’ in a couple of years.

They don’t check in till you’re six feet deep,

Then post R.I.P. like they cared ‘bout me.

Maybe I just need someone to say, “It’s okay,”

That I ain’t gotta fake it, I can break today.

Maybe I just need someone to listen, not fix,

Just sit in the dark, don’t tell me to quit.

I hold it in,

But shit what if I let it go? Would you love me then?

If I break down, if I cave in,

Would you still be here, or would you leave again?

I don’t wanna be strong just to prove I’m a man,

I just wanna be me, hope you understand.

Tired of holdin’ it in, tired of fakin’ a grin,

If I let it all go, time to start again?