[Intro]
mm-mm
if I never say it out loud
maybe it stops hurting
right?
[Verse 1]
bury it deep, lock it down
smile pretty, don’t make a sound
say “I’m fine” enough times
maybe someday it feels true somehow
black hoodie, tired eyes
carry ghosts home every night
whole life built on “I’m okay”
while the past still leaks through the cracks
[Pre-Chorus]
if I pretend it never happened
why does it still control me?
[Chorus]
can I move forward
if I deny what happened?
(move forward)
while my whole mind keeps reacting
every trigger, every shutdown
every fear I can’t explain
trying to outrun memories
still stitched into my veins
oh-oh
I act unaffected beautifully
(beautiful tragedy)
yeah-yeah
while secretly drowning underneath
can I move forward…
if part of me never left it?
[Post-Chorus]
(la-la-la)
silence doesn’t heal it
(la-la-la)
it just hides the bleeding
[Verse 2]
everybody says “let it go”
like trauma leaves that easily
but my body remembers things
my mouth never speaks about honestly
I still flinch at certain tones
still panic when people pull away
still feel danger in small things
even on good days
and honestly?
I got too good at functioning hurt
too good at romanticising pain
while emotionally getting worse
[Pre-Chorus]
I learned how to survive it
not how to heal from it
[Chorus]
can I move forward
if I deny what happened?
(move forward)
while my nervous system keeps collapsing
whole room full of people
and I still feel unsafe somehow
living like the past is over
while reliving it right now
oh-oh
I made pain look invisible
(invisible damage)
yeah-yeah
even when it’s destroying me quietly
can I move forward…
without facing what broke me?
[Bridge]
maybe silence isn’t healing
maybe it’s hiding
maybe “being strong”
became another way
to disappear
[Chorus]
can I move forward
if I keep pretending I’m okay?
(move forward)
while carrying all this weight every day
every scar, every memory
every part I buried alive
still lives underneath me
even after all this time
oh-oh
maybe surviving isn’t the same as healing
(not the same thing)
yeah-yeah
maybe I’m exhausted from hiding it all
can I move forward…
if part of me is still trapped there?
[Outro]
mm-mm
if I never say it out loud
does it still count?
Beexii