I became so easy so you’d stay by Rin - Zona

I became so easy so you’d stay by Rin - Zona

Lyrics

[VERSE 1]

I learned the shape of every silence

before it turned into a fight

I learned to laugh at things that hurt me

so they wouldn’t feel too right

I learned to say I’m fine too quickly

to smooth the edges out

I learned what people needed

before they even spoke out loud

and somewhere in that learning

I stopped asking for my own

like wanting took up too much space

to ever feel like home

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[PRE-CHORUS]

and I tell myself it’s kindness

to make it all feel light

but I think I just got better

at disappearing in plain sight

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[CHORUS]

I became easy so nobody would leave

soft enough to hold

quiet enough to believe

I became easy so nobody would leave

and now I don’t know

what parts of me I had to grieve

I learned to bend before they broke

the space between us down

I made myself a version

that would never weigh them down

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[VERSE 2]

I adjust my edges mid-conversation

so I don’t take up too much air

I rewrite my opinions quickly

so they’re easier to share

I apologise for existing

before anyone complains

like I’m trying to stay unnoticeable

inside my own remains

and I can’t tell when it started

this habit of being small

but now it feels like growing

is just learning how to fall

without making any sound

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[PRE-CHORUS]

and I wonder if they’d notice

if I stopped shaping myself right

or if I’ve always been invisible

just well-lit enough at night

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[CHORUS]

I became easy so nobody would leave

soft enough to hold

quiet enough to believe

I became easy so nobody would leave

and now I don’t know

what parts of me I retrieve

I learned to be whatever

keeps the room from breaking down

and in doing that I lost the part

that knew what I was now

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[BRIDGE]

it wasn’t loud

it wasn’t cruel

it was just me slowly learning

to be less of a rule

less opinion

less weight

less “I exist too”

just a version of me

that was easier for you

and I don’t even blame it

because it worked for a while

I stayed in every room

by shrinking into smiles

but now I don’t know where I end

or where I started from

just a person made of coping

pretending she’s someone

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[FINAL CHORUS]

I became easy so nobody would leave

and they didn’t

so I stayed

so I grieved

I became easy so nobody would leave

and now I don’t know

if I ever learned to breathe

without making myself smaller

than I ever meant to be

I became easy so nobody would leave

and now I’m the only one

who can’t find me

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[OUTRO]

I try to take up space

it doesn’t recognise my name