(INTRO)
How is the universe so beautiful
Yet so much ache
Why can’t I forgo the lesson
This mother wants to hold her babies
I am the one who gave you breath
Yet mine was taken when you left
VERSE 1
Mother’s Day again
And silence fills the room
A holiday for mothers
And I’m torn between what’s true
Do I celebrate my children
Who won’t answer when I call
Do I hold the ones beside me
My heart full
Not whole
PRE-CHORUS
There’s no permission
There’s no forgetting
There’s no control
A mother’s heart beats
To the beat of her children
From the moment you were spoken
From my breath
Your breath
CHORUS
The moment I heard your heartbeat
The moment I felt your fluttering feet
I knew right then you were a part of me
You made me a mom
Even when the story got rewritten
Even when your silence screamed
You made me a mom
That truth cannot be taken from me
It wasn’t my choice to not be called mom
It wasn’t my choice to feel loss over joy
No silence, no distance, no pain can undo
You made me a mom
VERSE 2
And some of you still reach for me
In ordinary ways
A laugh across the kitchen
That breaks me wide open
Something pure explodes
Agape with nowhere to go
A boundless love that overflows
Before the guilt slides in behind the light
Like I didn’t deserve this moment
Like loving you isn’t right
PRE-CHORUS
So why am I punished for being a mom
For loving too much, for holding on too long
For breaking in ways that cut through my core
While my heart never stopped
My heart never stopped
CHORUS
The moment I heard your heartbeats
The moment I felt your fluttering feet
I knew right then you were a part of me
You made me a mom
Even when the story got rewritten
Even when your silence screamed
You made me a mom
That truth cannot be taken from me
It wasn’t my choice to not be called mom
It wasn’t my choice to feel loss over joy
No silence, no distance, no pain can undo
You made me a mom
BRIDGE
I know I missed your birthdays
Your scraped knees, the graduations and weddings too
I know another voice was there when it should have been mine
For things I should have walked you through
I’m asking you to forgive me
I’m asking you to call me mom
I need you to know
I never stopped loving you
Not once
Not at all
So tell me
Is a mother only measured
By the years she got to stay
Or by the love that never left
Even when life
tore her
away
FINAL CHORUS
You made me a mom
Not perfect
Not polished
Not easy
Not whole
But real
And some of you see me
And some of you need me
And somewhere out there
I’m still yours too
I carried you all
I loved you all
I never stopped loving you
And you
All five of you
Made me a mom
OUTRO
How is the universe so beautiful
Yet so much ache
Why can’t I forgo the lesson
This mother wants to hold her babies
I am the one who gave you breath
Yet mine was taken when you left
(Spoken)
My babies my loves
Arianna, I love you , Nathan, I love you , Winston, I love you, Aliyah, I love you, Jaxson I love you
Thank you for making me a mom your mom
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