Construct of Pain

Whispers in a fractured mind

Shadows cast by the divine

Once I knew the touch of love, pure and tender

Now it's just a weight on my shoulders, a heavy surrender

Questions swirl like storms in my mind's eye

Is this world real or just a scripted lie?

Living in a cage of pain and despair

Seeking to prosper, but caught unaware

I read the holy pages, searching for truth

Finding flaws within, questioning my youth

Designed to suffer, meant to believe

In a paradise beyond, a dream we conceive

Love, just a word, a promise betrayed

A construct of pain, a price paid

Walking through the maze of guilt and regret

Seeking salvation, but I can't forget

Lucifer stands before me, a demon's face

Offering my soul, a final embrace

But I belong to the divine, the true king

Though I falter, still I sing

Sorry, Father, for my sins and my doubt

Human, flawed, trying to figure it out

In this world of shadows, I strive to see

The truth of who I am, eternally free

In the shadows of my falling, searching for the light

Lost within my echoes, praying through the night

Left a shell of who I was, drained and torn apart

Caught in the grasp of fame’s illusion, a broken heart

Stood in a circle, salt surrounding, sins I can't erase

In the mirror’s reflection, I see a fallen face

Visions of regret haunt my weary mind

Calling out for mercy, seeking what I hope to find

Sorry Lord, I’ve faltered, lost within my doubt

With your strength, I can rise, or I could crash out

If I deserve your mercy or your burning flame

I’ll choose to seek your grace, despite my shame

Kingdoms of despair, deserts cold and vast

Oceans of my sorrow, drowning in the past

Every face of failure, every path I’ve veered

A reminder of what I’ve lost, and what I still hold dear

Calling out for mercy, seeking what I hope to find

Praying for salvation, healing for my mind

Sorry Lord, I’ve faltered, lost within my doubt

With your strength, I can rise, or I could crash out

If I deserve your mercy or your burning flame

I’ll choose to seek your grace, despite my shame

Burning bridges behind me, shadows cast anew

But I still believe in You, and what You can do

Let me burn if I'm unworthy, I’ll embrace the fire

But I’ll keep on hoping, lifting higher

Earth’s reminders of my faults, of sins I’ve made

But I’ll keep on choosing You, no matter the grade

Before it’s too late, I plea for salvation’s air

For in Your mercy, I find my prayer