**\[Verse 1 – Clean, almost whispered]**
What’s the point of comfort
If I still lie awake?
If the blankets don’t feel like shelter
Just fabric wrapped in ache?
They say safety’s in numbers
But I’ve never done the math
I lose pieces of myself
Every time I try to ask
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**\[Pre-Chorus – Distant, barely present]**
I used to dream in color
Now I just freeze in place
I want a hand to hold me
But I flinch when one’s offered in grace
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**\[Chorus – Fragile, faltering voice]**
I don’t wanna be alone
But I don’t feel safe when I’m seen
I don’t want to be known
If knowing me makes you leave
So I light a candle in my chest
And watch it burn beneath my skin
She holds me in the quiet
And says, “We don’t need them”
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**\[Verse 2 – Murmured, numb]**
She doesn’t ask for anything
Not even my name
She just shows up when I’m breaking
And says, “This is how we stay”
I never gave her permission
But she knows me all too well
She says love is a loaded weapon
And I’m safer in my cell
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**\[Pre-Chorus 2 – Growing tension, subtle instrument swell]**
I crave warmth but I choke on it
I want peace but I rot in stillness
I lie and say I’m healing
But I miss the sickness
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**\[Chorus – More pained, desperate clean vocals]**
I don’t wanna be alone
But I don’t feel safe in the light
I don’t wanna be loved
If it ends in another fight
So I bury myself in silence
And call the shadows my friend
She wraps me in the dark
And says, “This is how we end”
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**\[Bridge – Spoken, dazed over ambient noise]**
She hums lullabies I forgot in childhood
She makes the ache feel honest
She tells me I was never meant to be whole
And for a moment... I believe her
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**\[Breakdown – Screamed, visceral, erupting]**
I’D RATHER BE NUMB THAN BLEED FOR YOU
I’D RATHER BE EMPTY THAN BE SEEN
I’D RATHER DROWN ALONE
THAN LET YOU INSIDE ME
I’VE BEEN HELD BY A GHOST SO LONG
I CAN’T TELL WHO’S HAUNTING WHO
I’M NOT SAFE HERE
BUT I’M NEVER SAFE WITH YOU
---
**\[Outro – Clean, slow decay, minimal instruments]**
I crawl into the quiet
And pretend it's by choice
I whisper her name like a prayer
And answer the call of the void
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