Sadness

Another day I wake another day I ache

Finding other new ways to fake

the smile that I make.

The time that I take to reflect on my mistakes

Am I moving to fast should I just pump the breaks.

Probably not I got to many dreams that I need to become real

On the road to riches but son of bitch I just lost my front wheel.

Going off track I’m going off the trail

Trying to keep it together

for the better so I can inhale.

Somedays I’d say I can make hard look easy

But then the smallest task can easily beat me

Energy draining when the pain

is constantly aiming at my brain

Creating idea’s with my fears

I can take crazy an make it seem sane.

Unstable or just unable to heal correctly

Disable hate an enable love to accept me.

Tired of concealing sadness

while feeling the madness multiply

I need some happiness more like a bulk supply

Before I earn my wings like a beautiful butterfly.

We all get in that mood not trying to be rude just learning the process

Might not be what you expect could be dealing with death, stress or just nonsense

My hearts hurting brains converting my joy into misery

My mental health is slippery

where my pain stems from is still a mystery.

Not sure why I’m crying or feel like I’m dying on the inside

Thoughts are dividing there’s no denying that I have tried.

I’m like a tree without leaves or the sea without water

Wish I had a spell for depression can someone tell Mr. potter.

No need for commotion we need a potion

for the ones that have frozen emotions

Just to be happy I’d show my devotion

By searching the bottoms of every single ocean.

My mental health is usually dealt with by writing an working out

Go run it’s fun feeling the breeze but the birds in the trees are chirping the words of doubt

Life can be beautiful but as usual I am under the weather

If happiness was gold I’d be old before I ever found that treasure.

Taking extreme measures

trying to be clever

all toxic ties will be getting severed

Is it for the worst I think it’s for the better.