Jealousy

I smile like nothing’s wrong tonight,

But something’s heavy in my chest.

You say her name so casually,

And I pretend I didn’t guess.

I don’t wanna be this way,

Counting every word you say.

I hate this feeling in my head,

The things I never meant to feel.

Jealousy is calling me,

Whispering what I can’t unsee.

I don’t wanna doubt your truth,

But my heart doesn’t listen too.

Jealousy, it’s breaking through,

I’m fighting it, but it feels so true.

I watch you laugh across the room,

And I feel smaller than before.

It’s not about what you might do,

It’s what I’m scared of at my core.

I tell myself to let it go,

But it follows me so slow.

I trust you more than my own fear,

Still this shadow’s always here.

Jealousy is calling me,

Whispering what I can’t unsee.

I don’t wanna doubt your truth,

But my heart doesn’t listen too.

Jealousy, it’s breaking through,

I’m fighting it, but it feels so true.

I’m learning how to breathe again,

To not compare, to not assume.

This feeling doesn’t define my heart,

I won’t let it decide my truth.

If you’re with me, stay sincere,

That’s the only thing I fear.

I choose trust over the pain,

Even when it feels the same.

Jealousy is calling me,

But I won’t let it control me.

I don’t wanna lose what’s real,

To a doubt I didn’t mean to feel.

Jealousy, I let you go,

I’m stronger now — I finally know.