Back to myself by Honey_Bee - Zona

Back to myself by Honey_Bee - Zona

Lyrics

VERSE 1

You pulled me in, pushed me out,

left me guessing which version of you

would show up that day.

I lived on the fault line of your truth,

waiting for the ground to crack open,

waiting for the betrayal you always swore

you were too “good” to commit.

But you did—

again,

and again.

You cared more about your ego

than the way my insides tore

every time you lied.

You held your shame like a crown,

but let my heart bleed at your feet

without a second thought.

PRE-CHORUS

I dimmed myself to survive your storms,

believing the man I hoped you were

was still somewhere buried

under the man you kept proving to be.

CHORUS

And the only thing you were ever consistent in

was hurting me.

Cutting me down when I named the darkness,

twisting my light until I couldn’t see myself anymore.

I loved you enough to carry the weight

you refused to face—

but all you ever wanted

was to feed on my affection

until I was empty.

VERSE 2

I mistook your damage for depth

and stayed long after the truth

was screaming in my face.

You let me break for you.

You let me shrink,

fold,

bend,

until I couldn’t recognize the sound of my own voice.

I lost myself in your shadows—

so far gone

I prayed to God

to take you from me

because I couldn’t walk away on my own.

PRE-CHORUS

But the fog lifted.

And I finally saw you clearly—

not the man I imagined,

but the man you chose to be.

CHORUS

And the only thing you were ever consistent in

was hurting me.

You traded my trust for your comfort,

my loyalty for your cowardice.

I kept offering softness

to someone who wasn’t man enough

to protect it.

You took and took

until there was nothing left of me

but a whisper.

BRIDGE

But I’m not whispering anymore.

I’m done bleeding for someone

who never bothered to hold the wound.

I’m done loving a ghost

that never once loved me back—

only loved what I gave him.

OUTRO

Now I see what I deserve

in a way I never could inside your darkness.

And every step I take away from you

feels like sunlight.

Feels like breath.

Feels like truth.

Feels like finally—

finally—

coming back to myself.