[Verse 1]
I learned young how to smile through a panic attack
How to hold everybody else while my own soul cracked
I became the strong one, that was my role
But nobody asks what it costs to carry ghosts
I got scars that don’t show in the mirror at night
Just exhaustion behind every “I’m alright”
And I know I got love, I know I got people
But depression’ll convince you you’re less than equal
So I write like a man with his hands through glass
Trying not to bleed on everybody I have
I don’t need saving, I just need seen
Need somebody to notice what silence means
[Pre-Chorus]
‘Cause I can fill a room and still feel gone
Still feel invisible with the lights all on
[Chorus]
I’ve been breathing borrowed air
Holding weight that wasn’t fair
Screaming softly, no one hears
Drowning slow for all these years
And if I disappear tonight
Tell my son I really tried
Tell my wife I fought like hell
Even when I hated myself
[Verse 2]
There’s a war in my chest every morning I wake
Like my mind and my heart both refusing to break
So they bend instead
And I live half dead
Trying to outrun thoughts stuck inside my head
I’ve chased validation like oxygen tanks
Let desire define me, let praise be my strength
But attention fades and the room goes cold
Then I’m left with the version of me I don’t know
And that’s the part nobody claps for
The nights sitting numb on the bathroom floor
The fear that I’m loved for what I provide
Not for the exhausted man trapped inside
[Bridge]
I don’t wanna die
I just wanna stop hurting
I just want peace
Without constantly searching
I just want someone to hear these words
And know this pain isn’t theirs alone
[Final Chorus]
I’ve been breathing borrowed air
Running empty everywhere
Still somehow I’m standing here
Even shaking, even scared
So if this song outlives my voice
If somebody feels this noise
Promise me you’ll stay tonight
Please don’t fade into the night
HumbleMike
