(Verse 1)
Fifteen years buried underneath my skin,
One bad decision let the devil in.
I tied my heartbeat to a chemical flame,
Now every memory wears addiction’s name.
Every road I loved, every dream I’d chase,
Every familiar smile, every sacred place—
I mixed them all with a counterfeit high,
Now the echoes remain while the feelings die.
(Pre-Chorus)
The colors faded into shades of gray,
The spark I knew just drifted away.
I’m chasing ghosts that don’t exist,
Reaching for a fire inside my fist.
(Chorus)
Now there’s static where the fire was,
Silence where I heard because.
Everything I used to love
Feels like dust I’m dreaming of.
I keep searching through the ashes,
Waiting for my soul to crash in.
If this is living, why’s it numb?
Why does every sunrise feel undone?
I’m still breathing… but I’m barely here,
Drowning in the absence year by year.
(Verse 2)
I’ve always carried everyone else’s weight,
Holding broken worlds together with faith.
Smiling while my own foundation cracked,
Giving every ounce I never got back.
I became the shoulder every stranger found,
While my own heart slowly hit the ground.
Empathy poured out until nothing remained,
Now exhaustion is the only thing unchanged.
(Pre-Chorus)
How do you save yourself at the end of the line,
When you’ve spent your whole life giving away your time?
I built a home inside everyone else…
And forgot to leave one for myself.
(Chorus)
Now there’s static where the fire was,
Silence where I heard because.
Everything I used to love
Feels like dust I’m dreaming of.
Every passion turned mechanical,
Every victory hypothetical.
I’m walking circles through the years,
Trying to outrun invisible fears.
Still breathing… but I can’t pretend,
I don’t know where I lost the man I had been.
(Bridge)
Maybe the drug never stole my soul…
Maybe I handed it over piece by piece.
To every smile I couldn’t bear to lose,
To every battle that was never mine to choose.
Now I’m standing in the wreckage I’ve become,
Learning healing doesn’t happen all at once.
Maybe feeling starts with one small spark,
Even if it has to rise inside the dark.
(Final Chorus)
There’s still embers where the fire was,
Hidden underneath the rust.
Maybe they can burn again,
Maybe this is not the end.
I’ll stop living for tomorrow’s ghost,
Stop measuring what I’ve lost the most.
One step forward, one more breath,
One more fight against regret.
The static doesn’t own my name…
I’ll learn to feel the world again.
It won’t erase the years I’ve known…
But I’ll build a life that’s finally my own.
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