[Verse 1]
You think you know when I am hurting
Because eventually I cry
You don’t see the hundred little things
I swallowed getting there that night
I tell you exactly what I’m feeling
You tell me why it can’t be true
Then I spend hours defending
What your choices put me through
[Pre-Chorus]
I never said you didn’t love me
I said I don’t feel loved by you
[Chorus]
You don’t know what you do to me
(you don’t know)
When every feeling needs a defense
I tell you that you hurt me
Then spend hours proving why it did
(why it did)
You tell me that I’ve got it wrong
Like you know what I felt better than I did
You don’t know how tired I am
(so fucking tired)
You think you know me better than I do
But what you do to me
You don’t know
(you think you know)
[Verse 2]
I know when not to ask a question
What can wait until the morning
One innocent sentence from me
Can become a fight without warning
I’ve gotten good at saying “whatever”
At deciding what to let go
Not because it doesn’t hurt me
I’m tired of being told I’m wrong
[Pre-Chorus]
You wonder why I keep things from you
I’ve explained myself before
Sometimes saying nothing hurts less
Than explaining anymore
[Chorus]
You don’t know what you do to me
(you don’t know)
I tell you that you hurt me
Then spend hours proving why it did
(believe me)
You tell me that I’ve got it wrong
Like you know what I felt better than I did
You don’t know how tired I am
(I’m so tired)
You think you know me better than I do
But what you do to me
You don’t know
[Verse 3]
I stopped asking you to take me somewhere
Before you noticed I had stopped
Stopped asking you to come and find me
Stopped waiting for what you forgot
But when you finally surprise me
I still light up like I always did
That should tell you I still want this
Not that nothing is enough
[Bridge]
I don’t want your fucking timesheet
(I want you)
I don’t need receipts for loving me
Don’t count the hours that you gave
Like they decide how I should feel
I wanted more because I wanted you
(I wasn’t done)
And somehow even saying that
Became another fucking fight
(again)
I fought so hard to get you sober
I almost disappeared myself
(you never saw)
I stopped chasing you through bottles
I couldn’t make you want the help
Now every time I try to tell you
You tell me what I felt was wrong
(how would you know?)
So I swallow one more sentence
And learn to hurt alone
(alone)
[Final Chorus]
You don’t know what you do to me
(you think you know)
I’m fucking tired of defending
Feelings that were mine before I spoke
(they’re mine)
You tell me over and over you love me
God, I wish that was enough
You think you know me better than I do
But what it’s like to be loved by you
You don’t know
(you don’t know)
[Outro]
I’m not asking you to read my mind
I’m asking you to believe me
Fifteen years of telling you how I feel
You think you know
But you still don’t hear me.