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[Verse 1]
I haven’t exactly lied to you
I just learned what not to say
“He drinks too much, he gets mean sometimes”
Then I laugh and look away
I tell the stories I can make funny
Leave out the ones I can’t
You know enough to know it’s hard
Not enough to understand
[Pre-Chorus]
If you thought that I was happy
I can’t blame you for believing me
I gave you pieces of the truth
Just never what they did to me
[Chorus]
Every night he disappears
Drowning his sorrows, shutting out the world around him
And I’ve stopped seeking him out
’Cause I know how that turns out
So I sit alone for hours
Sometimes days when he’s angry
While the whole damn house gets darker
All around me
You know that he’s a heavy drinker
But you don’t know how lonely that can feel
(you don’t know)
I’m surrounded by his storm
And somehow I’m alone in it still
[Verse 2]
I know when not to ask a question
I know what can wait till morning
I know one innocent sentence
Can become something not even I could’ve anticipated
Sometimes I find him where he’s passed out cold
Usually I just leave him there
It’s not worth the energy it takes
To deal with him if I wake him
[Pre-Chorus]
I’ve gotten good at saying “whatever”
Good at letting silence win
You might call that keeping peace
I call it knowing when to give in
[Chorus]
Every night he disappears
Drowning his sorrows, shutting out the world around him
And I’ve stopped seeking him out
’Cause I know how that turns out
So I sit alone for hours
Sometimes days when he’s angry
While the whole damn house gets darker
All around me
You know that he’s a heavy drinker
But you don’t know how lonely that can feel
(you don’t know)
I’m surrounded by his storm
And somehow I’m alone in it still
[Verse 3]
Maybe this is what I’ve hidden
More than anything before
I’m not nearly as okay
As I look walking out that door
Every laugh you heard was real
Every good night mattered too
I can still find reasons to be happy
And be deeply unhappy too
[Bridge]
I fought so hard to get him sober
I almost disappeared myself
Thought if I could love him harder
I could make him want the help
(God, I really fucking tried)
Then one day I stopped fighting
Not because I didn’t care
I finally understood
I couldn’t keep dying with him there
Nobody tells you when you stop
You don’t get all that strength back
Sometimes you put the weight down
And still feel where it cracked
(I still feel it)
I don’t need anybody saving me
That isn’t why I’m telling you
I’m tired of making it sound smaller
Just to make it easier to hear the truth
[Final Chorus]
Every night he disappears
And I don’t go looking anymore
So I sit alone for hours
Sometimes days when he’s angry
You know that he’s a heavy drinker
But you don’t know what living with it steals
(you don’t know)
I’m surrounded by his storm
And somehow I’m alone in it still
[Outro]
I haven’t exactly lied to you
I just never told you how it feels
You know the life I let you see
(you don’t know)
You don’t know everything.
Details
GeneratedSep 15, 2026
Duration4:46
LanguageEnglish
Style
Top hits, pop hits, female,alternative rock/emo, sad slow love song, piano, STRONG female vocals
Credits
Prompt byajr0916
ModelAria v6
