How did I get here

**Verse 1**

Suitcase by the doorway

Bills stacked on the counter

Everybody think I got it handled

‘Cause I don’t break down out loud

Funny how life keep moving

Even when you feel stuck still

I used to think by this age

I’d know exactly what was real

I had plans so specific

Thought life would move in lines

Thought love was something safe

If your intentions were right

But people change, and I changed too

Trying to survive it all

Now I barely recognize

The girl I used to call strong

**Pre-Chorus**

And some days I look around

At everything I built

And still feel empty standing in it

‘Cause I been strong too long

Held it together too much

Now I don’t know if I’m healing

Or just used to surviving stuff

**Chorus**

How did I get here?

This don’t feel like my life

Everybody needing pieces of me

While I’m just trying to survive

If you told me four years ago

I’d be this confused inside

I would’ve laughed so hard

Like “what the heck?”

Now I smile in pictures

Then cry on the drive home

Everybody think I’m good

But I still feel alone

And I know there’s a reason

At least that’s what people say

But some nights I still sit quiet like

“What the heck happened?”

**Verse 2**

Met love that looked promising

Then watched it fall apart

Twice I gave my whole self

Twice it left marks on my heart

Maybe I ignored red flags

Trying so bad to be chosen

Now I carry lessons

I was never prepared to hold

Still…

I achieved things I prayed for

Made it farther than they thought

Even through grief so heavy

I could barely process loss

Lost the person who knew me best

And the world ain’t felt the same since

Now I walk around smiling

With heartbreak in the stitching

**Pre-Chorus**

Different country, different weather

Still trying to adjust

Friends keep me from falling apart

When life gets too much

And I thank God for the people

Who hold me together when it’s dark

‘Cause nighttime hit different

When it’s just you and your thoughts

**Bridge**

Maybe everybody secretly grieving

The life they thought they’d live

Maybe growing up is realizing

Some wounds don’t heal that quick

Maybe healing ain’t graceful

Maybe rebuilding take time

Maybe nobody really knows

What they’re doing with their life

**Final Chorus**

How did I get here?

This don’t feel like my life

How can everything look stable

But feel wrong inside?

Maybe one day I’ll look back

And finally understand

But right now I’m just doing

The best I can

And maybe there’s still beauty waiting

Past all this confusion and fear

But tonight I’m still sitting here like

“How the heck did I get here?”