Kill the Rage

I got a temper like a timer ticking under my skin

Every second getting louder when the pressure kicks in

I snap fast, then I hate it, asking “why’d I react?”

Argue with the mirror when the silence fights back

I drag weight from the past like it’s chained to my spine

Old scars spark conversations every time that I’m pressed

Little sparks turn to blasts, yeah I know it’s extreme

But my mind hits the throttle before logic can speak

I was raised where emotions were buried in pride

“Man up” meant suppress it, never let it slide

So I learned how to bark, never learned how to heal

Now I’m choking on feelings I’m scared to reveal

Jaw tight, pulse pounding, heartbeat taps

Like it’s punching my ribs trying to break through my chest

Then I see her expression and the room gets cold

I promised I’d be better, but I’m losing control

I don’t wanna be the reason my house feels stressed

Don’t wanna turn love into something I weaponize next

I’m rewiring the circuits, repairing my brain

Cutting rage out the picture, letting peace take the frame

I don’t wanna pass down what was passed to me

I don’t wanna be anger, I wanna breathe free

So I battle myself every night in the flames

For my wife, for my daughter, for permanent change

My daughter got my eyes, yeah my heart in her face

Every laugh from her mouth feels like saving grace

She don’t need a dad with a voice like a blast

She needs arms that feel safe when the future moves fast

I wanna be the calm when the world gets loud

Not the storm that makes her lower her crown

I don’t want my temper teaching her fear

I want patience and love to be all that she hears

And my wife’s seen the highs and the lows of my days

Held me steady in storms while I lost my way

She deserves a man who can listen and grow

Not apologies spoken, then ignored tomorrow

Sorry ain’t enough when the damage still rings

When the echoes keep bouncing off everything

So I’m mapping my triggers, learning when to retreat

Learning silence can win what my shouting defeats

I’ve been cutting my thoughts like a surgeon, precise

Separating the wrong from the truth and the right

I refuse to let fury be king of my name

Or let one bad moment define who I became

Anger talks fast, yeah it’s sharp and it’s loud

But love moves slow, got its feet on the ground

Growth hurts more than just staying the same

But comfort in chaos ain’t part of my lane

When I feel it rise up, I pause and I pray

Count breaths like measures till it fades away

I step back knowing strength ain’t the volume I speak

It’s controlling one second so I don’t lose a week

I ain’t perfect, I stumble, I fail, I confess

But I’m done letting rage be my armor and vest

My legacy ain’t shouting, violence, or pain

It’s love, dedication, consistency, change

This ain’t just a rap, it’s a vow in the booth

I’m rebuilding my character bar after truth

For my wife, for my daughter, for growth I pursue

I’m killing my anger so love can live too