Dead Weight

I’ve been drownin’ in my head, water up to my throat,

Every promise that you made was attached to a rope,

Pulled me under every time that I thought we could float,

Now I’m talkin’ to the dark while I’m losin’ all hope.

You said forever like it meant somethin’ real,

Then switched faces every time I started to heal,

I gave you every part of me I swore I’d conceal,

Now I’m numb to the pain, I don’t know what to feel.

Go ahead, text four hundred dudes tonight,

Tell another story, paint me as the bad guy,

Every lie gets bigger when you tell it enough,

Guess the truth ain’t worth much when love ain’t enough.

I’m drowning in my head again,

Can’t tell where the storm ends.

Middle fingers to the love,

Middle fingers to the drugs,

Middle fingers to the nights I spent bleedin’ for us.

And I’m screamin’ at the sky again,

Watchin’ everything collapse again,

Fuck the games, fuck the fake,

Fuck the promises you made,

I’ve got oceans in my chest and they’re draggin’ me away.

Every fight was a fire and I carried the flame,

Then you’d blame me for the smoke while you walked away clean,

I was breakin’ at the seams, you were changin’ the scene,

Now the memories replay like a movie on repeat.

Everybody says move on, it’ll fade with time,

But they never saw the damage hidden behind my eyes,

Never stayed up at 3 AM wonderin’ why,

Someone who said “I love you” could turn love into lies.

Maybe I was just a chapter, maybe you were just a scar,

Maybe we were both too broken from the start,

But I know one thing for certain as I’m fallin’ apart—

I won’t let your chaos become my heart.

I’m drowning in my head again,

But I ain’t going down with it.

You can keep the empty words,

Keep the poison, keep the hurt,

I’m done carryin’ the weight of a love that never worked.

And I’m screamin’ at the sky again,

Watchin’ old versions of me end,

Fuck the games, fuck the fake,

Fuck the promises you made,

I’m still breathing through the waves even when they crash again.

The water’s high…

But I’m still here.

Your voice gets quieter…

Every year.

And one day these waves won’t know my name.