Head slipping

I tend to say things I dont mean

The brain telling me different things

My heart telling me another

Do I truly know what I want?

They're at war

As i start breaking myself down

Wanting to die( wanting to die)

Voices telling me one thing and the other

But im trying to change just for you

You dont even have a clue

But i love you so much more than you do

But I cant seem to touch the surface

As im trapped in stainless glass

Watching as im screwing things up

Wanting to cry but the body doesn't let me

As im drifting out of place

Self sabotaging

Killing myself slowly

And set myself so low