I used to think love looked like staying
No matter what they put me through
Giving grace when I was breaking
Finding reasons that excuse the truth
I was the house with the porch light on
Middle of the night, come on in
I'd help you carry all your demons
Then help you find your feet again
But somewhere in all that saving
I forgot to save myself
Maybe I filled my life with all the wrong people
Built my home on promises they couldn't keep
Opened every door, gave away the keys
And wondered why there wasn't anything left of me
I called it loyalty
When I should've called it pain
Called it understanding
While I was standing in the rain
Maybe the lesson wasn't losing them
Maybe it's finally choosing me
One came to me with tears and bruises
Swore this time she'd really leave
Then disappeared without a warning
Like I was something she'd outgrown, not something she'd need
One taught me that being seen
Can feel like sunlight on your skin
And maybe we crossed a line or two
But God, it felt good being understood by him
Now everybody's got a story
About who was wrong and who was right
But all I know is I got tired
Of fighting battles that weren't mine
Maybe I filled my life with all the wrong people
Built my home on promises they couldn't keep
Opened every door, gave away the keys
And wondered why there wasn't anything left of me
I called it loyalty
When I should've called it pain
Called it understanding
While I was standing in the rain
Maybe the lesson wasn't losing them
Maybe it's finally choosing me
I don't hate them
I don't need revenge
I don't need a villain
To explain how this ends
Some people are seasons
Some people are scars
Some people are mirrors
Showing you who you are
And maybe that's the hardest truth
After all these years
Not everybody I loved
Was meant to stay here
Maybe I filled my life with people who were hurting
People just as lost and broken as me
Maybe we were all just trying
To find what we couldn't be
But I'm done mistaking history for home
Done begging to belong
If peace is what I've been missing
Then peace is where I'm going
And if closing the door
Is what sets me free
Then maybe losing them
Was finding me
ButtahPeacan
