Fallen

I am drowning in my own mess

liquified existence, non existance

in other people minds.

I fell so deep

I cannot see the surface

I am beaten, lost.

Anything I try I MESS IT UP

so why would it be different for

LIFE.

To much chaos in my mind

to much suffering

I would like to get better

but I think I am failing again.

Anything I try I MESS IT UP

so why would it be different for

LIFE.

I feel exausted,

only outside stimulants help a bit

but when empty

only thing that's left is my chaos.

To hunt me down

to remind.

Anything I try I MESS IT UP

so why would it be different for

LIFE.

I would like to end it

but I still hope.