I am drowning in my own mess
liquified existence, non existance
in other people minds.
I fell so deep
I cannot see the surface
I am beaten, lost.
Anything I try I MESS IT UP
so why would it be different for
LIFE.
To much chaos in my mind
to much suffering
I would like to get better
but I think I am failing again.
Anything I try I MESS IT UP
so why would it be different for
LIFE.
I feel exausted,
only outside stimulants help a bit
but when empty
only thing that's left is my chaos.
To hunt me down
to remind.
Anything I try I MESS IT UP
so why would it be different for
LIFE.
I would like to end it
but I still hope.