The fall

I used to think I’d be somebody they’d remember when I’m gone

Used to stare into the dark and swear I’d make it on my own

Had a fire in my chest, had a reason, had a plan

Now I’m staring at the ceiling trying to find that kid again

Where’d he go?

Was it one bad choice or a thousand little cuts?

Was it every time I said tomorrow while tomorrow never showed up?

Everybody talks about the crash, the burn, the final scene

Nobody talks about the years spent dying in between

This is the fall

Not the sound of hitting bottom, it’s the silence after all

It’s watching pieces of yourself disappear behind the wall

It’s hearing people say your name and not feel it anymore

This is the fall

And I swear I didn’t see it coming at all

I got scars nobody notices, battles nobody knows

Smiling through the conversations while my mind was letting go

Had friends I would’ve died for, now we’re strangers passing by

Got a phone full of old memories that feel like someone else’s life

And that pisses me off

Cause I gave my blood to people who forgot me in a week

Spent years carrying the weight while they were sleeping peacefully

Built my world around a future that never showed its face

Now I’m cleaning up the wreckage of a dream that couldn’t stay

Tell me, when did life get so damn cold?

When did young turn into old?

When did hope become survival?

When did passion lose control?

I remember nights that felt eternal

Laughing so hard we couldn’t breathe

Now the silence in this room is loud enough to bury me

This is the fall

Not a lightning strike from heaven, not a kingdom standing tall

Just another day of feeling like you’re nothing much at all

Looking in the mirror trying to find what’s left to save

This is the fall

And it happened little by little every day

Maybe that’s why it hurts so much

Cause there was no final warning

No goodbye

No dramatic ending

Just one day realizing the person you became is someone you don’t recognize

I wanna scream at every mistake I made

Every chance I let slip away

Every moment I traded for fear

Every year I wasted waiting for my life to start

I thought I’d have more time

More time to chase it

More time to fix it

More time to become the man I promised I’d be

Now the clock keeps moving and I can’t stop hearing it

If I could talk to the kid I used to be

The one with the fire in his eyes

The one who believed he could be anything

Would he still believe in me?

Or would he look at everything I became

Shake his head

Turn around

And leave?

This is the fall

The funeral of who you were without a grave at all

The weight of every dream you carried breaking through the floor

The sound of your own heartbeat begging you for something more

This is the fall

But if you’re hearing this

If you’re staring at your own reflection wondering where the years all went

If you’re angry

If you’re tired

If you’re grieving somebody who’s still alive inside your chest

Maybe we’re not gone yet

Maybe the fact it hurts this much means there’s still something left