Lately I been flying, I don’t know what it’s bout,
I wanted piece of mind but scared to open up my mouth
Lord knows I’m trying,-I Been trying not to die in this house
My vision clear, but it’s my thoughts that I fear
I can’t be near without my shield and a spear
Waters get treacherous, and people more leachorous
Don’t worry they’ll be gone in a year
No pun intended,
I been counting exits just in case I gotta end it—
They smile in your face, but they don’t care if you ascended,
They rather see you grounded, dependent,
Bent over backwards, and beggin’ for mentions.
Man, lately I been sleepin’ in my shoes,
Heart heavy like a noose—tryna win but hate the rules.
Therapy ain’t really helpin’ me, I ghosted every session,
’Cause when I speak my truth, it feel like I’m confessin’ weapons.
I don’t want pity, just some silence and a room with a view,
Where I can cry, write bars, maybe record in a booth.
Look,
I ain’t suicidal, just tired of survival,
Tired of tryna armor up before I read the Bible.
Tired of bein’ noble when the world ain’t fair,
And every time I dream, I always wake up gaspin’ for air…
But to be fair-I’m……
[pre-chorus]
Supposed to be grateful, supposed to be strong,
Supposed to smile wide like nothin’ is wrong.
Supposed to be the man, hold it down, stay calm—
But when the lights go out, I’m barely hangin’ on.
And that’s the part I hate…
The way I fake through faith,
Like God don’t already know I been feelin’ misplaced.
So if I break—
Let it be in a space where I’m safe…
[Hook]
I been tryna keep my head above,
But the waves too rough, and my breath runnin’ out (yeah)
Everybody say they real—but where they at when it count?
It’s just me, my pain, and the couch… (real talk)
I done smiled through the worst of my nights,
But that don’t mean I’m alright
I’m just good at actin’ like I’m healed on sight,
Still bleedin’ inside… but I fight.
(Still here… still tryin’… still fightin’…)
BlackREVIVEDDC
