[Verse 1]
I ain’t cocky—I’m not braggin’, I just walk it myself,
I’m not fiendin’ conversation—I just talk to myself.
But if I’m honest? This shit gets lonely…
Had to disconnect from all of my homies,
Not ’cause I didn’t care—truth is, I don’t think we was goin’—the same way.
Sometimes it even feel like they was holdin’ me back… and that’s whack,
But my ever-growin’ hunger made me feel like im trapped.
Between the work and my desires, I’m gettin’ sick of consoling—
Myself, from all the obstacles I faced with no help.
Can’t count how many nights I was breakin’ in stealth,
Smilin’ in public, but inside I was searching for self.
Tryna manifest peace, but my spirit been at war,
I opened every door—just to find another whore.
I ain’t ungrateful,-just drained-,Carried too much on my name—
People love you when you down, but they hate when you change.
It’s strange…-the ones you’d kill for, barely show up when it’s critical.
They celebrate your pain but never post you when it’s pivotal.
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[Hook]
What do I do?
They paint me as a lie when I been givin’ ’em truth…
Thoughts been racin’ like I’m stuck in a loop…
Heart gettin’ heavy, barely pushin’ it through.
I been prayin’… but Ion even know who I’m praying to.
(What do I do?)
I gave ’em all my soul, now I’m feelin’ abused…
I done dimmed my light just to light up the room.
But now I’m done runnin’ on fumes…
(What do I do…?)
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(What do I do…?)
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[Verse 2]
Sometimes I wonder—
If I was silent for a year, who would notice my slumber?
I been drownin’ in these thoughts, like I’m deep under cover,
But my smile never fades—(I’m the same as my mother)
That “you good?” shit-don’t work on me
I been laughin’ through the hard times-the storm only rains on me
Ion flex, I feel conscious—like I’m in saints row 3
But I ain’t postin’ all my wounds just to beg for a fee.
[switch-up]
They tell me “Stay strong,”
But never ask what’s wrong…
Swear, the ones you would die for—be gone by dawn.
I’ve been holdin’ in my tears like it’s somethin’ to prove,
But bein’ numb ain’t peace, I just got nothin’ to lose.
I’m just movin’ through the motions, while my purpose delaying,
Fakin’ strength in every sentence like I’m good at portrayin’.
And if I break tonight?—they’d say that I’m highly acclaimed.
But I been prayin’.
Problem is—I don’t know what I’m sayin’.
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[Hook]
What do I do?
They paint me as a lie when I been givin’ ’em truth…
Thoughts been racin’ like I’m stuck in a loop…
Heart gettin’ heavy, barely pushin’ it through.
I been prayin’… but Ion even know who I’m praying to.
(What do I do?)
I gave ’em all my soul, now I’m feelin’ abused…
I done dimmed my light just to light up the room.
But now I’m done runnin’ on fumes…
(What do I do…?)
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(What do I do…?)
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