[Verse 1]
I don’t even know what I feel
That’s the part that’s scaring me
One minute I’m fucking furious
The next I don’t feel anything
I’ve replayed it twenty thousand times
Still don’t know what to believe
How can somebody be a stranger
When they’re tangled in your memories?
[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t miss you
I miss the peace before I knew
[Chorus]
So why the fuck are you taking up space?
Rent-free in a mind that wants you erased
I don’t want answers
I don’t want your name
I just want one fucking day
Where you don’t show up in my brain
You’re in the silence
You’re in the noise
You’re in the memories I can’t destroy
And I hate that after everything
You still take up space
[Verse 2]
Everyone thinks healing’s linear
Like you wake up and you’re okay
Nobody talks about the moments
When the past walks back your way
I wasn’t waiting for a message
Wasn’t waiting for a sign
Then suddenly you’re everywhere
In every corner of my mind
[Pre-Chorus]
And I don’t know if I’m grieving
Or just angry I was wrong
[Chorus]
So why the fuck are you taking up space?
Rent-free in a mind that wants you erased
I don’t want closure
I don’t want revenge
I just want to stop carrying this shit
Everywhere I fucking am
[Bridge]
I wish I could hate you cleanly
I wish I could hate you whole
Instead I’m stuck between missing someone
And knowing they never existed at all
And that’s the part nobody warns you about
The empty feeling
The nothing feeling
The everything feeling
At the same damn time
[Final Chorus]
So take your ghost
Take your mask
Take every question I still ask
I’m tired of giving pieces of myself
To somebody who doesn’t deserve them
I don’t want you back
I just want my head back.
Rin
