Half Awake, Still There..

mm-mm…

I woke up again…

I wake up shaking in the dark

heart racing like it never stopped

sweat on my skin, tears in my eyes

still trapped inside what my mind designed

the room is real but I’m not yet

still half inside what I can’t forget

I turn, I toss, I try to breathe

but my own sleep won’t let me leave

and nobody sees it

when the night turns on me

I dream in fear that feels too real

like my own mind knows how to steal

my peace, my breath, my quiet space

and leave me lost in empty space

I wake up crying, numb, undone

still running from what’s just begun

and morning comes but I’m not fine

I’m still inside the night in my mind

oh-oh…

I’m still shaking

yeah-yeah…

still waking up

I stare at ceilings trying to prove

that I am here, that I can move

but my body feels like it stayed behind

somewhere in the dark of my mind

and I hate how real it can feel

like something I can’t undo or heal

just echoes of a place I go

when I’m asleep and lose control

and I wish I could turn it off

but it follows when the lights are off

I dream in fear that feels too real

like it knows exactly how I feel

and pulls me under, pulls me down

until I can’t tell night from now

I wake up shaking, breath half gone

trying to convince myself I’m wrong

but the feeling doesn’t leave my skin

it lingers long after I begin

if sleep is supposed to be peace

why does it break me piece by piece

I just want one night that stays

soft until the morning breaks

I dream in fear but I’m still here

still breathing through the aftermath fear

and maybe one day I’ll wake up light

but tonight I survived the night

mm-mm…

I’m still here…

I’m still here…