Handle me with Care

Verse 1]

You walked in soft, I was movin’ cautious

Heart half locked, I don’t trust what “honest” is

I been here before, seen the same disguise

Somethin’ real turn fake right in my eyes

So I keep a distance I don’t explain

Act like I’m good, but I’m still in pain

Got habits I hate, I know them well

Push people away before they can tell

You’re gettin’ close and I feel that shift

Like if I let go, I might lose this

So handle me careful, I’m not brand new

Got cracks in my heart I ain’t shown to you

I want you closer, but I might pull back

Not ‘cause I don’t care, I’m just wired like that

Yeah you feel safe… and that’s rare for me

But safe turns dangerous eventually

I don’t wanna break what we could be

So I’m fightin’ myself just to let you see

I read too deep into every tone

Turn silence into somethin’ wrong

You take a second, I assume the worst

Like every good thing comes with a curse

And I hate that part, yeah I know it’s me

You ain’t done nothin’, it’s my history

Echoes of words that cut too clean

Still livin’ inside my memory

You say my name like it don’t hurt

Like I ain’t damaged, like I got worth

So handle me careful, I’m not brand new

Got cracks in my heart I ain’t shown to you

I want you closer, but I might pull back

Not ‘cause I don’t care, I’m just wired like that

Yeah you feel safe… and that’s rare for me

But safe turns dangerous eventually

I don’t wanna break what we could be

So I’m fightin’ myself just to let you see

If I stay… will I change or repeat?

Will I love you right or just hurt you like me?

I’m caught between runnin’ and stayin’ still

Between what I want and what I feel

I don’t wanna ghost when it gets too real

Don’t wanna shut down every time I feel

Somethin’ real start buildin’ up

Just ‘cause I don’t know how to trust

You’re not them… I keep sayin’ that

But my mind don’t always follow facts

And I’m tryin’… yeah I swear it’s true

Just don’t know if I’m safe for you

So handle me careful, I’m learnin’ still

How to love without the fear to kill

I want this different, I want this real

But I don’t trust how my past feels

Yeah you feel safe… I won’t lie about that

But safety’s somethin’ I’ve learned to attack

I don’t wanna lose you to who I’ve been

So I’m at war with myself again

If I let you in… don’t let me run

I’m tired of bein’ who I become