Verse 1]
You walked in soft, I was movin’ cautious
Heart half locked, I don’t trust what “honest” is
I been here before, seen the same disguise
Somethin’ real turn fake right in my eyes
So I keep a distance I don’t explain
Act like I’m good, but I’m still in pain
Got habits I hate, I know them well
Push people away before they can tell
[Pre-Chorus]
You’re gettin’ close and I feel that shift
Like if I let go, I might lose this
[Chorus]
So handle me careful, I’m not brand new
Got cracks in my heart I ain’t shown to you
I want you closer, but I might pull back
Not ‘cause I don’t care, I’m just wired like that
Yeah you feel safe… and that’s rare for me
But safe turns dangerous eventually
I don’t wanna break what we could be
So I’m fightin’ myself just to let you see
[Verse 2]
I read too deep into every tone
Turn silence into somethin’ wrong
You take a second, I assume the worst
Like every good thing comes with a curse
And I hate that part, yeah I know it’s me
You ain’t done nothin’, it’s my history
Echoes of words that cut too clean
Still livin’ inside my memory
[Pre-Chorus]
You say my name like it don’t hurt
Like I ain’t damaged, like I got worth
[Chorus]
So handle me careful, I’m not brand new
Got cracks in my heart I ain’t shown to you
I want you closer, but I might pull back
Not ‘cause I don’t care, I’m just wired like that
Yeah you feel safe… and that’s rare for me
But safe turns dangerous eventually
I don’t wanna break what we could be
So I’m fightin’ myself just to let you see
[Bridge – emotional build]
If I stay… will I change or repeat?
Will I love you right or just hurt you like me?
I’m caught between runnin’ and stayin’ still
Between what I want and what I feel
I don’t wanna ghost when it gets too real
Don’t wanna shut down every time I feel
Somethin’ real start buildin’ up
Just ‘cause I don’t know how to trust
[Breakdown – stripped / almost spoken]
You’re not them… I keep sayin’ that
But my mind don’t always follow facts
And I’m tryin’… yeah I swear it’s true
Just don’t know if I’m safe for you
[Final Chorus – more intense]
So handle me careful, I’m learnin’ still
How to love without the fear to kill
I want this different, I want this real
But I don’t trust how my past feels
Yeah you feel safe… I won’t lie about that
But safety’s somethin’ I’ve learned to attack
I don’t wanna lose you to who I’ve been
So I’m at war with myself again
[Outro]
If I let you in… don’t let me run
I’m tired of bein’ who I become
