I was there when the lights went out
When your world was heavy, when you had your doubts
I held the weight you couldn’t see
Showed up every time you needed me
I bit my tongue, I stayed too long
Called it love while it felt wrong
I gave you space, I gave you time
I gave you pieces of my spine
You said you’d never be that one
But you left like it was nothing done
You walked away like I was replaceable
Like all that love was disposable
Now you don’t get access to me
No late-night calls, no “come save me”
You chose the door, you made it clear
I was only real when I was near
You lost me easy, I paid the fee
Now you don’t get access to me
I was solid when you were chaos
I was calm when you were lost
I stood still while you ran free
Guess loyalty don’t mean a thing
I watched you drift, I felt it change
Felt the distance in your name
You didn’t fight, you didn’t stay
Just turned around and walked away
You didn’t look back, didn’t ask
If I’d survive the aftermath
You walked away like I was replaceable
Like all that love was disposable
Now you don’t get access to me
No second chances, no apologies
You chose the door, you made it clear
I was only useful when I was here
You lost me easy, I paid the fee
Now you don’t get access to me
I won’t hate you, I won’t chase
I just closed what you couldn’t face
Boundaries drawn where love once bled
Some doors don’t open once they’re dead
I’m not bitter, I’m awake
I learned my worth from your mistake
You walked away like I didn’t matter
Like I was just a temporary chapter
Now you don’t get access to me
No more me pouring, you empty
You taught me silence speaks the most
And love ain’t begging someone close
You made your choice, I set myself free
Now you don’t get access to me
I was there…
You weren’t.