No access

I was there when the lights went out

When your world was heavy, when you had your doubts

I held the weight you couldn’t see

Showed up every time you needed me

I bit my tongue, I stayed too long

Called it love while it felt wrong

I gave you space, I gave you time

I gave you pieces of my spine

You said you’d never be that one

But you left like it was nothing done

You walked away like I was replaceable

Like all that love was disposable

Now you don’t get access to me

No late-night calls, no “come save me”

You chose the door, you made it clear

I was only real when I was near

You lost me easy, I paid the fee

Now you don’t get access to me

I was solid when you were chaos

I was calm when you were lost

I stood still while you ran free

Guess loyalty don’t mean a thing

I watched you drift, I felt it change

Felt the distance in your name

You didn’t fight, you didn’t stay

Just turned around and walked away

You didn’t look back, didn’t ask

If I’d survive the aftermath

You walked away like I was replaceable

Like all that love was disposable

Now you don’t get access to me

No second chances, no apologies

You chose the door, you made it clear

I was only useful when I was here

You lost me easy, I paid the fee

Now you don’t get access to me

I won’t hate you, I won’t chase

I just closed what you couldn’t face

Boundaries drawn where love once bled

Some doors don’t open once they’re dead

I’m not bitter, I’m awake

I learned my worth from your mistake

You walked away like I didn’t matter

Like I was just a temporary chapter

Now you don’t get access to me

No more me pouring, you empty

You taught me silence speaks the most

And love ain’t begging someone close

You made your choice, I set myself free

Now you don’t get access to me

I was there…

You weren’t.