[Verse 1]
You said I love you
I heard an alarm
Mouth full of sharp words
Hands full of harm
I turn every kitchen
Into a war zone
Then sweep up the glass
Pretend I’ve grown
[Pre-Chorus]
But you keep a coffee mug
At my side of the sink
Like you trust I’ll be here
Longer than I think
[Chorus]
I’ve been so fucked up
Bruising every good thing
But I’m learning how to hold you
Not just how to cling
I’m not good at love
Still I’m staying in the ring
Yeah I’m bleeding
But I’m trying
Let me be the change I bring
[Verse 2]
I write you an apology
On a crumpled receipt
Fold it in my pocket
Like a secret defeat
You catch me in mid-spin
When I start to retreat
Say
“You don’t have to be perfect
Just don’t repeat”
[Pre-Chorus]
So I circle every pattern
I used to ignore
Put my pride in the trash
As I knock on your door
[Chorus]
I’ve been so fucked up
Bruising every good thing
But I’m learning how to hold you
Not just how to cling
I’m not good at love
Still I’m staying in the ring
Yeah I’m bleeding
But I’m trying
Let me be the change I bring
[Bridge]
I used to slam the door
Now I sit on the floor (with you)
Counting every deep breath
Like a brand-new tattoo
If I shake
If I break
Will you still see me through?
You say
“Look at your hands now
They’re softer than they knew” (oh)
[Chorus]
I’ve been so fucked up
Bruising every good thing
But I’m learning how to hold you
Not just how to cling
I’m not good at love
But I’m done with running scenes
If I fall
I fall toward you
You’re the reason that I’m clean
[Outro]
I’m still messed up
But I’m showing up
Every scar
Every step
Is a truer kind of love