[Verse 1]
Girl
I could’ve saved you
Back when you still called me first
Now he’s the one who holds you
I’m the ghost rehearsing every word
I keep your texts in a folder
Labeled “things I can’t delete”
I read them when I’m sober
Then I go and scrape my knees
[Chorus]
My drug dealer is my therapist (hey)
He’s got what I need to forget you
Tiny plastic bag full of promises
Says
“take one more
She can’t undo”
If I can’t erase the way we kissed
I’ll blur the edges till they’re see-through
My drug dealer is my therapist
And I swear he understands you
[Verse 2]
She sings: “Boy
You couldn’t save me
I was sinking long before
I just wanted someone crazy
To set a fire on the floor”
You trade your sleep for a moment
Just to feel less left behind
You keep chasing every dosage
But you’re running out of time
[Chorus]
My drug dealer is my therapist (oh)
He’s got what I need to forget you
Tiny plastic bag full of promises
Says
“take one more
She can’t undo”
If I can’t erase the way we kissed
I’ll blur the edges till they’re see-through
My drug dealer is my therapist
And I swear he understands you
[Bridge]
[Drums drop to half-time
Guitars ring open]
I dial your number
Let it ring
Hang up before it hits your name
I carve apologies in skin
Then cover every line with shame
You’re healing in his bedroom light
I’m bargaining with chemicals
You found a hand to hold at night
I found a way to feel disposable
[Chorus]
My drug dealer is my therapist
He’s got what I need to forget you
(Forget you, forget you)
Tiny plastic bag full of promises
Says
“take one more
She can’t undo”
If I can’t erase the way we kissed
We’ll scream the truth till it breaks through
My drug dealer is my therapist
But he’ll never understand you (never)