[Verse 1]
You laughed in my ripped-up jacket
Stole my ring
Called it a crown
Polaroids on my cracked old mirror
Now they watch while I come down
Ash in the sink
Half-said confessions
Your name carved in the windowsill
I still wear that stupid bracelet
Like it’s something that could heal
[Chorus]
You were my favorite bad decision
Perfect chaos in my veins
Now I’m chasing your apparition
Through these nights that never change
I burned out every good memory
Just to feel you in the smoke
Come back and haunt this ruined body
Be my patchwork ghost
[Verse 2]
We kissed in the back of the funeral car
Joked that we’d never grow old
You traced maps on my ruined knuckles
Said my hands were getting cold
Now I trade sleep for cheap prescriptions
Stacked like trophies by the bed
Every pill’s a loaded question
Would you stay if I were dead?
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
[low vocal register] I still taste cherry on that rooftop
When you swore I wasn’t broken yet
[voice cracks] Now my heartbeat’s skipping like a scratched disc
Every high another lost bet
[guitar drops out]
If I crawl out of this wasteland
If I scrub you from my blood
Would you even recognize me
Standing
Shaking
In the flood?
[crescendo] I keep dialing your old number
Just to hear that dead-line tone
Screaming “I’m still here
I’m still here”
In a house that’s not a home
[Chorus]