No safe space

Verse 1

Therapists talk like they know my name

Like pain fits neat inside a frame

I’ve swallowed hope in measured doses

Watched it rot behind my focus

Meds made me quiet, not okay

Turned my fire into decay

I’m not cured, I’m just restrained

Like a loaded gun with a bent safety

Pre-Chorus

They say “calm down,” like I don’t try

Like I don’t bleed just to survive

I don’t snap—I corrode

Slow collapse, heavy load

Chorus

There’s no safe place inside my head

I white-knuckle every thought instead

My emotions don’t ask, they take

They kick the door in when I’m awake

I don’t lose control—I feel it slip

Every second, fingertip by fingertip

Sometimes the dark gets the best of me

But it never gets the rest of me

Verse 2

I know the signs, I see the wave

I brace for impact, try to behave

One memory wrong, one nerve exposed

And I’m back in a body I don’t control

I don’t scream, I internalize

Turn panic into deadened eyes

If rage had fingerprints, they’d be mine

Pressed deep into my spine

Pre-Chorus

They praise restraint like it’s peace

But pressure doesn’t equal release

I don’t need saving, I need silence

From the thoughts that practice violence

Chorus

There’s no safe place inside my head

I white-knuckle every thought instead

My emotions don’t ask, they take

They kick the door in when I’m awake

I don’t lose control—I feel it slip

Every second, fingertip by fingertip

Sometimes the dark gets the best of me

But it never gets the rest of me

Bridge

I live between explosion and freeze

Between “hold it together” and “drop to my knees”

Control is a myth I chase in the dark

While I’m duct-taping cracks in my heart

If I let go, I lose it all

So I stand here, back to the wall

Breathing through teeth, jaw locked tight

Surviving myself every night

Final Chorus

There’s no safe place inside my skin

I fight wars I’m not meant to win

My emotions circle, wait, then strike

Like they’ve been studying my life

I don’t break loud—I decay slow

Carry hell wherever I go

Sometimes the dark gets the best of me

But it never gets to bury me

Outro

I’m not healed.

I’m not calm.

I’m controlled chaos

Still standing.