Hold on

Got comfortable living my life on standby

Clock tick loud but I’m letting time fly

Everybody calls when they breaking inside

But when I break down, it’s just me and the night

I’m the glue, I’m the patch, I’m the fix, I’m the friend

Hold the whole world up while I’m caving in

Smile so wide like I’m built outta steel

But nobody ever asks how I feel

They say “you’re strong,” yeah that’s code for “hide it”

If I cry, I swallow it, choke, don’t fight it

Mirror looking back like “who is that man?”

I keep saving everybody… but I’m sinking in sand

Day by day I fade away

Piece by piece I drift to gray

Always waiting… stuck control

Listening to my life on hold

I’m living on hold

Heart still beating but it’s cold

Everybody dialing my line

But nobody saving mine

I scream but it don’t make sound

Feet still move but I’m underground

If I don’t save my soul

I’m disappearing on hold

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Yeah

Phone light buzz, yeah they need me again

“Can you talk?” yeah sure, pretend

Back of the line, put me last every time

Giving out strength when I ain’t got mine

Battery low but I’m still on call

Catch everybody when they fall

Meanwhile I’m one breath from the edge

Balancing life on a cracking ledge

Running on fumes, caffeine and regret

Giving out hope that I ain’t felt yet

Hero mask glued to my face too long

Now I don’t know what’s right or wrong

If I vanish, would anyone see?

Or just dial when they need something from me?

Whole life stuck in this role I control

Listening to my own heart… on hold

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What if I chose me for once…

Let the calls go to tone…

Maybe saving myself

Is finally picking up my own phone…

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I’m not living on hold

Not letting my story go cold

For once I’m answering me

Setting myself free

If I fall, I won’t fold

I’m done being last in the fold

Yeah tonight I take control

I’m done… living on hold