The prayer before battle

I turned this prayer into a song, knowing there was nothing poetic about what I was asking for, so I just let it flow

I asked God for things I’ve never asked for and a few things I’ve asked before knowing I had to let my faith quiet the fear of how he was gonna answer…

For once I refused to let fear stop me from askin’

I asked for strength to hold me up when I’m at my weakest. I asked for forgiveness from past and present mistakes, I asked for healing, I prayed for the return of my confidence, I asked for freedom from insecurity, I prayed to remain humble, I asked for a WHOLE LOT OF GRACE

I know he knew what I was asking before I asked a single question.

I know he knew what my intentions were before I found the courage to say a single word.

I’ve never prayed like this before, but I had so much to pray for.

If there was a time I needed GOD more than now, I don’t know when that would’ve been, but I know I need him more now than I ever have, so I’m praying through it all for the patience and understanding to sit still and wait for answers

I asked to be a better leader in all arenas, I asked for courage under fire, as well as the comfort to know these growing pains are only temporary

I prayed for my wife like I’ve never prayed before,

I asked God to give her peace of mind, PLEASE GOD, JUST LIFT HER UP, I prayed she’d forgive me for the pain I’ve caused at the same time I prayed for the chance to show her the love she deserves. I prayed she could see me the same way she did in the beginning,

better said, I prayed she’d fall in love with me all over again.

I prayed for healing in all my relationships, I prayed he’d allow others to see my true colors and forgive me for who I’ve been and for all the wrong I’ve done.

I asked him to heal my family from the grief of loss. I prayed for the relief of their pain from all the time lost,

And I prayed for so much more..

The longer I prayed, the more I understood what I was prayin’ for and I fought to keep from holding anything back so for once I could just let it all go.

I know the devil was present because I could feel him dancin’ on my shoulder, I swear I could hear him askin’ me if I was just actin’ thinkin’ that’d get me the answers I wanted to hear, so I prayed for the strength to brush him off,

On everything, I never prayed this hard before, even though I knew, I didn’t deserve what I was asking for.

The Devil can dance all he wants but that doesn’t change me knowing, there was never a time I needed God more than now, ever.

Yes God I need you more now than ever.

Help me erase all the doubt and second-guessin’, I need your LOVE STRENGTH

and PROTECTION. God, I know I need you more now than ever.

AMEN