[Verse 1]
Despair
Hands on my shoulders
Fingers cold
Digging in like blame
My heart once strong
Full of cheap miracles
Now it stutters
Like a busted engine in the rain
I taste yesterday
Burnt on my tongue
Laugh tracks fading
As the room comes undone
[Chorus]
Ambrosia
Dark angel
Are you proud of what I became?
Kneeling in the wreckage
Of every chance I threw away
Ambrosia
Dark angel
Drinking rust instead of grace
If this is what I asked for
Why do I hate this face?
[Verse 2]
Friends gone silent
Names like ghosts in my phone
Blue light flickers
On a kingdom of clothes on the floor
I scroll my sins
Like a greatest hits record
Every missed call
Every slammed
Forgiving door
Regret is a rhythm
Tapping holes in my ribs
Loneliness whispers
“you did this
You did this”
[Chorus]
[Bridge]
I suffer in the static of my thoughts
Barely breathing under every could-have-been
If you’re there
Black-winged saint of lost causes
Wrap those ruined feathers round my skin
Teach me how to live with what I’ve broken
Teach me how to carry all this weight
Or carve your name across my chest
So at least this hurt has a shape
[Chorus]