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You sit there and begged me to trust you when I ask you why

Our time relationship you never straight with me all you ever did was lie and then tried to turn everything around on me like it was my fault I was the one to blame. All I could do is shake my head and tell you nice try get the f*** away from me get the f*** on I hope you have a nice drive cuz the only thing she did to us is tear me apart tear me down kick me when I was already down cuz that's how you thrive that's how you stay alive I don't know why or have but that's just the way you vibe I'm going to pick myself up and walk away as far away as I can I'm going to try to turn the other cheek I'm going to try to be a man I'm going to pick myself up off the ground again and I'm going to try to stand as long as I don't have to f*** with you no more because I remember when I I cottage cheese I remember pulling into the driveway and all I heard was loud music when I had just gone to the store I knocked and knocked but the handles was locked so I kicked open the f****** door and there you were with you belt and done your pants and down your hairs in this and homeboys behind you picking his pants up off the floor and you wonder why I call you a w**** doesn't take a genius to understand the things I say or why it doesn't take a genius to understand why I don't trust you you never understand it the things you do because they don't affect you but you know it doesn't affect just me fix my daughter too you betrayed us just so you could get it quick screw how disgusting how low life what the f*** did I do and I should be for a second third fourth time you threw it in my face and again try to blame me for your lies it's time for me to wait and realize this is just a dumb cuuuuuuunt. You bled me dry you looked at me with such demise despise you thought it was wise to keep on pushing my buttons to see how far I could go before I caught a charge 2 years f****** far 2 years standing pretty tall feeling pretty large I should have left you a long time ago should have left you before I met you I should have never text you told you that I thought you were cute I should have realized from the first time you left me that you were no good realized it's too late when I realized you was not mine but you belong to the hood and I knew then thought I was where I stood but you didn't realize that I understood you were out of my league but I thought it was cuz you were too good come to find out you were out of my league because I could have never stood a chance to be the only one that you loved or gave your perspective no everybody else got it not me and now you'll never see what the f*** you did to me so easily vindictively you destroyed everything about me and now I don't know what to do I don't know how to live I don't know what to think I'm like a shell of a man that I used to be sometimes I don't want to be sometimes I don't want to feel sometimes I want to lay down and take a few pills and not wake up at all