(Intro – static noise + soft rain in background, whispered voice)
911, what’s the emergency?
Hello, I'm about to commit suicide…
Please stay on the line and do nothi—
Is anyone there?
(soft beep, line disconnects…)
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(Verse 1 – lo-fi beat kicks in, slow voice almost whispering)
Wake up in the morning,
Check my phone right away…
Just looking at the alarms—
Just trying to get myself up…
I get out of bed,
First thing I do,
Take a second to breathe…
Try to meditate.
Heavy clothes on,
Emotions packed in a paper box,
And if there’s one thing that pisses me off—
It’s knowing I can’t change a thing right now.
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(Hook – slow echo, ambient synths)
Nothing feels right…
Nothing feels right...
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(Verse 2 – soft rap flow, lo-fi beat)
Go to work—
Surrounded by people
Who tell each other to fuck off
Every ten minutes,
Smiling like they didn’t just fine
When they litterally Insult your whole bloodline.
Hide in the bathroom stall,
Squat down,
Thinkin' how nobody stands on a pedestal—
But they act like kings.
Narcissistic kings.
Smile at you—
Then tear you apart.
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(Pre-Chorus – whispered harmonies under the beat)
End of the day…
Don't know what to do…
Take a shower…
Lay down…
Cry under the blanket...
Until morning comes.
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(Chorus – fading in, half sung half rapped)
Same day, different face,
Same jokes, same fakes…
And I’m thinking—
Would they care, if I killed myself?
Same jokes, same laughs,
Same dead dreams on my back.
Would they even turn around…?
(whispered) Probably not…
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(Verse 3 – beat slows slightly, voice breaks a bit)
Finally that moment comes…
Stand up, sit down,
Decide what’s gotta be done.
Grab the phone,
Dial the number—
Not the helpline,
But emergency.
Tell ‘em what I plan to do…
Then hang up.
Stage set.
Ten minutes…
They should be on their way.
White pills,
Little soldiers
Lined up to ease the pain.
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(Bridge – piano solo + broken whisper)
There’s a girl I like…
To me, she's everything…
But listen—
To her… I’m just anyone.
If I die…
She wouldn’t even blink.
So tell me…
What’s left to stop me?
From swallowing these pills...
From closing these eyes…
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(Chorus – full emotional drop)
Mhmh… I know…
This can hurt…
Mhmh… I know…
But at least…
I won’t feel this pain anymore.
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(Outro – ambient sound fading, heart monitor beep slowing down)
(soft breathing… heartbeat fades…)
...at least not anymore...
Colddisaster
