(Lead)
Different women, same damn bed
Same white ceiling over my head
Two before noon, three by night
Still can’t sleep when I kill the lights
They say my name like it means something
Nails down my back, say I’m “the one”
But I’m staring past their naked skin
Looking for a life I was living in
(Pre)
I fuck to forget but it don’t erase
The sound of my kids when they say my name
(Hook)
I got ass in my bed, still fucking alone
Ten years deep, can’t let her go
I chase her face in every damn room
But she ain’t in them, it’s just me and the truth
I can fuck all night, still wake up cold
I don’t miss her body, I miss my home
Yeah I got women, yeah I’m known
But I’m rich in regret and fucking alone
(Lead)
I tried the ring, I tried again
Tried to pretend this shit made sense
Her kids, my kids, forced smiles tight
Everybody acting like we’re alright
Love ain’t Lego, don’t snap in place
You can’t build a past on a stranger’s face
I wanted forever, not “good enough”
And that truth hurt worse than giving up
(Pre)
They ask why I run when it gets too real
Real reminds me of what I’ll never heal
(Hook)
I got ass in my bed, still fucking alone
Ten years deep, can’t let her go
I chase her face in every damn room
But she ain’t in them, it’s just me and the truth
I can fuck all night, still wake up cold
I don’t miss her body, I miss my home
Yeah I got women, yeah I’m known
But I’m rich in regret and fucking alone
(Bridge)
Maybe I don’t miss her, maybe that’s the lie
Maybe I miss who I was when my kids were mine
Back when the future didn’t feel this thin
Back when love didn’t feel like a fucking sin
I ain’t broken, I ain’t weak
I just won’t fake peace
(Final Hook)
I got ass in my bed, still fucking alone
Ten years gone, still calling it home
I touch skin but I’m holding air
I look for her eyes, she’s never there
I can fuck all night, still hate myself
Can’t buy back time with someone else
Yeah I’m desired, yeah I’m shown
But I’d trade it all to not be alone
(Outro)
Different women
Same fucking ghost