Middle of the Fire (Explicit)

(intro)(bpm72)(half)(dark)(pad)(sub)(rise)

(v1)(low)(talk)(raw)

I’m just tryna keep the fucking lights on tonight

Water barely running, bills stacked to the sky

Everybody hungry, everybody stressed

Everybody calling me like I got answers left

I’m the one they dump it on when shit goes wrong

Every fight, every problem, I’m the fucking bond

Everybody talking shit about everyone else

I’m so busy fixing them, I don’t fix myself

(pc)(build)(tense)(lift)

I don’t get a break, I don’t get a breath

I carry all this weight till there’s nothing left

(ch)(drop)(808)(hit)(wide)

I’m stuck in the middle of the fire again

Trying not to drown while I save all my friends

If I stop moving, everything breaks

This game called life don’t play it safe

I’m holding the line till my hands go numb

Trying to be everything I’ve never become

If I fall tonight, I fall alone

I’m stuck in the middle of the fire, holding on

(post)(ride)(sub)

(v2)(low)(grit)(raw)

One car, same fights, same broke days

Same old bullshit, different names

Everybody yelling, everybody mad

And somehow I’m the villain when it all goes bad

I don’t eat first, I don’t drink first

I ignore my body, I bury the hurt

Yeah I’m an alcoholic, yeah I get sick

But I make sure they’re good before I take a sip

(pc)(build)(rise)(drum)

I lie to myself and say I’m fine

But I’m running on fumes and out of time

(ch)(drop)(808)(hit)(wide)

I’m stuck in the middle of the fire again

Trying not to snap while I save all my friends

If I slow down, everything breaks

This game called life don’t play it safe

I’m holding the line till my hands go numb

Trying to be everything I’ve never become

If I fall tonight, I fall alone

I’m stuck in the middle of the fire, holding on

(br)(cut)(pause)(echo)

(drop)

What the fuck do you do

When doing right still fucks you too

(br2)(raw)(truth)

I got kids that need a daddy, not a ghost

Not a man at the bottom of a bottle losing hope

They can’t see me like this, barely alive

So I fake that smile and tell ’em I’m fine

Some nights I think about dirty ways

Fast money, bad moves, criminal plays

I’m tired of losing, tired of being broke

Tired of being strong when I’m barely afloat

(ch)(final)(big)(808)(choir)

I’m stuck in the middle of the fire again

Trying to survive without losing my head

If I keep standing, maybe I win

Maybe one day I let my kids back in

I don’t want a crown, I don’t want fame

Just solid ground and less fucking pain

If I make it out, they’ll never know

How close I was to letting go

(out)(strip)(fade)(sub)

Still here

Still breathing

Still fighting this shit