Smoke clouds

Drinking trying to understand why you switched up and started acting brand new. Out staring at the wall with the neon blue light. Broken hearted numbing the pain. Blowin smoke clouds in hopes to get rid of your crowded thoughts on my brain. Your on my mind around the clock. From dawn to dusk all I seem to think about is that pretty face. I am out at night trying to forget the taste of your kiss. Feelin so damn hopeless and depressed. Filling my glass trying to let the  past go. Ohhh but it is all in vain. You will be there again struggling. To stay sane how you showed me paradise only to let us fade away. Your absence has me taking risks and chances. Rolling the dice playin for keeps. What if we tried it twice. Maybe we could get it right this second time. I know I shouldn't have let you in. How you were captivating glowin with the sun rise. Going through growin pains the distance between us. Has me done threw the empty bottle in frustration. I can't see your lips and the morning light meet. Beating myself up I won't see your hips in neon lights. I want you. I want to wrap you in my arms and love. But you want none of it. My sunny days are gone. I am covered by the clouds of what could be. Drinking whiskey hoping this heart would finish breaking. Nothing I try will ever work. I keep seeing you wearing my ring. Writing heart weeping with each line. Wishing I could ease you from my mind. But it's taking too much time. I can't relax without my heart bringing up the past. You are on all the tracks of my train of thought. Can't go no where. I end up seeing you there. Staring at the stary night sky. Thinking how you have the same gleam the same shine  in your eyes. I day dream of holding you. I down a few shots to get you off my mind. I know heart breaks take awhile but this too much time. I drink and drink only for you to be there when I open my eyes. You are the first thought when I rise. I replaying your smile in my mind. Remembering the feeling of the best view. That being next you. Yeah I need a fix for this hex. 

Sad dark 90's country pop