Damage

Moving forward as I rebuild my border to repair the damage.

Had to vent so I could prevent more pain that I couldn’t manage.

Tip toeing through tears trying to see clear but life’s blinding

Providing problems designing goblins that are always hiding.

The real staple that I’m not able to peel out is called depression

Head fills with pressure I become lesser as I fill with aggression

Been awhile since I piled my problems on my phones notepad

Two years ago in December remember you’re suicide note an how you wrote that.

Twas a cloudy time always had a rowdy mind wish I could relax

Fixed up the cracks in my head but left a few gaps.

Shattered glass soul doesn’t matter what I’ve been told

feeling of being alone when I decide for my mind to roam.

Fields of frightening thoughts get the knife it’s time to harvest some crops

Pulled them by the roots all them rotten fruits everything gets chopped.

That feeling when you have to pretend to be happy an hide grief

Drawing on a smile just for awhile so no tears slide down my cheek.

Trying to be yourself but you’re mental health at this time Is so weak

Seems like every single day sadly to say feels like it’s on repeat.

Walked miles through madness it’s like magnets where attached

The crazy train going through my brain finally detached.

Breaking barriers is scarier when you’re heads in the clouds

Its quiet outside but the riot in you’re head feels like there’s a crowd.

Just trying to vacate the hate an relocate my state of mind

Climbing the mountain to fates fountain for the gods above to decide.