Breaking my back just for people to lack a little love
Im not asking these bastards to go beyond an above.
But people can get greedy only be there when they need me
They completely bleed me until they leave then the pain free’s me
Rinse and repeat life’s treat of being kind and sweet
Thinking they are giving you floatys but really filling your pockets with concrete.
Some friends pretend to be your biggest supporters
But as you grow their true colors show the horrors
Clapping or just smacking there hands for it to seem true
Just want to see you fail so they can say they told you.
Building my identity but mentally I’m my enemy most days
Never jealous sorry fellas I’m not stuck in my old ways.
I’m growing as a person not trying to be worse then what I was before
I’m settled all nestled moving me is like trying to wrestle to lift the hammer of Thor.
Giving my all to those who fall for life’s test
Find your own path an complete your own life’s quest.
Making monsters in my mind this bi-polar feeling is not fine
It’s like hide in seek but they always peek it sucks being combined.
Not really a people person it seemed to worsen after covid
It shows it now I’m an introvert it doesn’t hurt that I’m devoted.
I know I lost it but for all you know I crumpled it up and tossed it
My brain of course an it’s false reports has me all exhausted.
Overthink overthink overthink
My thoughts go around like roller rink
Is it 5pm
“Yes”
Well then time to take my meds
It keeps me in the driver seat an not the other guy instead.
“Tyson!! Say hellooo”
Hello gents it’s time that I spend some time with society
Tyler try’s so hard to mute and silence me.
Not a good idea since he’s inside of me
Get it I said inside of me instead of me inside of him
Because the days coming I take control an finally win!!.
Murrmanski
