Smoke in the Chest

It’s 3AM and I still feel it

Ash on my shirt, pain in my spirit

Eyes red, heart cold, you ain’t near it

But I still hear it… yeah, I still hear it…

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I roll another ‘cause it slows it down

But your voice still echoes in the background

You said, “Don’t lose yourself,” and I tried

But I lost you somewhere on the other side

Now I’m sleepin’ with ghosts in the sheets

And they all wear your perfume, baby, it’s deep

I ain’t touched a bottle in a couple months

But I miss you worse when I’m sober as f**k

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I thought time would kill the sting

But it just taught me how to sing

Through the cracks and the cough

Through the silence you left when you took off

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Now it’s smoke in my chest, hurt in my breath

Tryna find peace, but I ain’t found it yet

You were the calm in my storm, now it’s rain

You left me stuck with the guilt and the blame

Yeah, I light it just to kill the ache

But all that does is make me break

You’re gone, I guess I needed less

But all I got now is smoke in my chest

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Every room in this place got your name on the walls

Even after I painted ‘em all

Your hoodie’s still hangin’ by the front door

And I still check the drive like you’ll pull in once more

I ain’t tryna write a song, I’m just bleedin’

You moved on, I’m still here barely breathin’

Told myself I’d heal in time

But time don’t help when the pain feels right

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I been chasin’ highs I’ll never reach

I been sayin’ lies like “I’m at peace”

But I still sleep with your picture face-down

‘Cause I can’t stand seein’ you smile now

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It’s just smoke in my chest, love in the past

A heart built of glass that shattered too fast

You were the only thing keepin’ me sane

Now all I got is regret and your name

Yeah, I light it just to feel okay

But I don’t feel nothin’ anyway

You’re gone, I guess I failed the test

Now all I got left is smoke in my chest