Don’t Let Me Be This

[Intro – soft, almost talking]

⸻

[Verse 1]

Wake up already tired, yeah I’m sick of this shit
Mind goin’ a hundred, I can’t sit in it
Say I’m good but I’m not, I just live with it
Bottle everything up ‘til I flip with it

I don’t wanna yell, I don’t wanna break shit
But it’s like somethin’ in me just takes it
And twists it, turns it into somethin’ I’m not
Then I look around like what the fuck did I just cause

I see it on her face and it kills me
I know she don’t deserve how I get, see
I swear I love her more than I say
But in the moment I push everything away

And I hate that
Every time I snap I can’t take that back
Tryna be better but I fall right back
Like I’m stuck in a loop I can’t break out of that

⸻

[Pre-Hook]

I’m scared of the man that I turn into
When I lose control, I don’t know what to do
I’m fightin’ myself and I’m startin’ to lose
If I keep goin’ like this I got nothin’ to prove

⸻

[Hook – melodic, emotional]

Don’t let me be this
I don’t wanna live like this
Every time I lose control
I feel like I don’t exist

I’m tryin’, I swear
But it’s like nobody’s there
Inside my head it’s loud as hell
And I’m fightin’ for air

Don’t let me be this
Don’t let me be this

⸻

[Verse 2]

Got a son and he watch how I move
That shit hit different, I got somethin’ to lose
I don’t want him growin’ up like me
Angry at the world, not knowin’ what to do

I remember sayin’ I’d never be that
Now I’m seein’ pieces of me in my dad
And that scares me more than anything
Like I’m runnin’ from it but I’m fallin’ back

Tryna change but I don’t know how
Every time I think I got it, I’m down
One bad day and I’m back to square one
Feelin’ like I’m always lettin’ them down

And I’m tired of sayin’ “I’ll be better”
If I don’t change, I might lose forever
Everything I got, everything I love
All because I couldn’t get my shit together

⸻

[Bridge – rising intensity, almost screamed]

I don’t wanna be this man
I don’t wanna break again
I don’t wanna lose my home
Over shit inside my head

I don’t wanna see her cry
Because I couldn’t control my pride
If I don’t fix this now
I might lose my whole life

⸻

[Final Hook – bigger, more desperate]

Don’t let me be this
I don’t wanna live like this
Every time I lose control
I feel like I don’t exist

I’m tryin’, I swear
But it’s like nobody’s there
Inside my head it’s loud as hell
And I’m fightin’ for air

Don’t let me be this
Don’t let me be this

⸻

[Outro – quiet, defeated but aware]

I know it’s on me
I know I gotta change
I just hope I figure it out
Before it’s too late

95 BPM emo trap‑rap track in minor key. Haunting saxophone loop,Late-night vibe, ambient beat, regret,heartbreak, weed