(Intro – soft, layered whispers, maybe reversed)
If I fade before you wake…
Just know it wasn’t because of you.
I just got tired of trying to stay.
That’s all.
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(Verse 1)
I been drifting off slow with a blunt in hand
Eyes half-closed, phone full of plans
Texts I won’t answer, calls I avoid
Smiles I fake just to fill the void
Said I’d change, but I never do
Burned bridges, now the flame my view
I had love, I had trust, I had people who cared
Now it’s pills on my nightstand, smoke in the air
My girl said, “You been gone even when you here”
My bro said, “You alright?”—I said, “Yeah, cheers”
But I ain’t okay, and I ain’t been
I just lie with a grin and a bottle of sin
I hurt the ones that tried to save me
Pushed away the ones who gave me
Hope when I ain’t had shit
Now I ghost ‘em all when I can’t commit
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(Hook – melodic, slow delivery)
If I fade before you wake, I’m sorry I ain’t say it
I left the love on read, I watched my peace decayin’
If you think of me once, that’s enough to know
That I tried to be more than this dark I show
If I fade before you wake, don’t cry too long
You did your best, but I been too gone
I ain’t proud, I ain’t fixed, I ain’t whole
I’m just tired of pretending to be in control
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(Verse 2)
Still sleepin’ with regret in the bed I made
Still dreamin’ ‘bout chances I never take
Still chasin’ ghosts I should’ve let go
Still hiding shit no one knows
I say I’m cool, then I vanish again
Pop one tab, then I text fake friends
Act like I’m busy when I’m just low
Doin’ circles with nowhere to go
I lied when I said I’m fine
I lied when I smiled online
I lied when I kissed her slow
She deserved better—I know, I know
Got pain I won’t say, shame I won’t show
If I die tonight, will they even know?
I ain’t tryna make a scene or leave a note
I just want the silence to hold my throat
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(Hook – repeat, fuller harmony)
If I fade before you wake, I’m sorry I ain’t say it
I left the love on read, I watched my peace decayin’
If you think of me once, that’s enough to know
That I tried to be more than this dark I show
If I fade before you wake, don’t cry too long
You did your best, but I been too gone
I ain’t proud, I ain’t fixed, I ain’t whole
I’m just tired of pretending to be in control
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(Bridge – slow, poetic breakdown)
Didn’t mean to hurt you
Didn’t mean to lie
Didn’t mean to push
But I needed space to die
Didn’t mean to ghost
Didn’t mean to drift
Didn’t mean to fade
But I can’t fix this
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(Final Hook – layered, with echoes)
If I fade before you wake, just hold my name
Don’t blame yourself, you ain’t the flame
You were the light when I had none
But I got tired of outrunnin’ the gun
If I fade before you wake, just close your eyes
Don’t chase my ghost, don’t feed the lies
I’ll be where silence tastes like peace
And pain don’t talk, it just… leaves
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(Outro – whispered, fading out)
If I fade before you wake…
It’s okay.
I was never meant to stay.
3reezy
