IF I FADE BEFORE YOU WAKE

(Intro – soft, layered whispers, maybe reversed)

If I fade before you wake…

Just know it wasn’t because of you.

I just got tired of trying to stay.

That’s all.

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(Verse 1)

I been drifting off slow with a blunt in hand

Eyes half-closed, phone full of plans

Texts I won’t answer, calls I avoid

Smiles I fake just to fill the void

Said I’d change, but I never do

Burned bridges, now the flame my view

I had love, I had trust, I had people who cared

Now it’s pills on my nightstand, smoke in the air

My girl said, “You been gone even when you here”

My bro said, “You alright?”—I said, “Yeah, cheers”

But I ain’t okay, and I ain’t been

I just lie with a grin and a bottle of sin

I hurt the ones that tried to save me

Pushed away the ones who gave me

Hope when I ain’t had shit

Now I ghost ‘em all when I can’t commit

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(Hook – melodic, slow delivery)

If I fade before you wake, I’m sorry I ain’t say it

I left the love on read, I watched my peace decayin’

If you think of me once, that’s enough to know

That I tried to be more than this dark I show

If I fade before you wake, don’t cry too long

You did your best, but I been too gone

I ain’t proud, I ain’t fixed, I ain’t whole

I’m just tired of pretending to be in control

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(Verse 2)

Still sleepin’ with regret in the bed I made

Still dreamin’ ‘bout chances I never take

Still chasin’ ghosts I should’ve let go

Still hiding shit no one knows

I say I’m cool, then I vanish again

Pop one tab, then I text fake friends

Act like I’m busy when I’m just low

Doin’ circles with nowhere to go

I lied when I said I’m fine

I lied when I smiled online

I lied when I kissed her slow

She deserved better—I know, I know

Got pain I won’t say, shame I won’t show

If I die tonight, will they even know?

I ain’t tryna make a scene or leave a note

I just want the silence to hold my throat

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(Hook – repeat, fuller harmony)

If I fade before you wake, I’m sorry I ain’t say it

I left the love on read, I watched my peace decayin’

If you think of me once, that’s enough to know

That I tried to be more than this dark I show

If I fade before you wake, don’t cry too long

You did your best, but I been too gone

I ain’t proud, I ain’t fixed, I ain’t whole

I’m just tired of pretending to be in control

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(Bridge – slow, poetic breakdown)

Didn’t mean to hurt you

Didn’t mean to lie

Didn’t mean to push

But I needed space to die

Didn’t mean to ghost

Didn’t mean to drift

Didn’t mean to fade

But I can’t fix this

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(Final Hook – layered, with echoes)

If I fade before you wake, just hold my name

Don’t blame yourself, you ain’t the flame

You were the light when I had none

But I got tired of outrunnin’ the gun

If I fade before you wake, just close your eyes

Don’t chase my ghost, don’t feed the lies

I’ll be where silence tastes like peace

And pain don’t talk, it just… leaves

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(Outro – whispered, fading out)

If I fade before you wake…

It’s okay.

I was never meant to stay.