A rose that arose from the pavement
Started off a seed just to grow up an be trapped in governmental enslavement
Having to work to stay afloat while in constant need of saving Love & happiness is all Ive ever been craving
A world with freedom of speech but you get judged for your statements I’ve always had quite the imagination Thinking I was the chosen one
But I was surely mistaken wish I could say that my life hasn’t been mentally draining At least I made it Many times through the darkness but just pacing
Always daydreaming trying to focus
But I’d be completely spacing Have never been much of a drawer but I was good at tracing Looking for the easy way to do things but
never facing The fact I could test myself to keep me from fading
Losing myself but one thing I’m never saying
Is that I’d become someone I’d be hating
Over the years I’m constantly changing
Tryna ghost the world so my life doesn’t feel so degrading The people who can love me for me
I’m forever praising In the nighttime I find myself looking up gazing
Life goes by so fast it’s like nascar but I’m in last place racing To the finish line I will forever be awaiting
Im relating to the ones who are broken & been goin through agony while still aching It’s like the fall & my problems are all the leaves I’m just constantly raking Like I’m landscaping while looking like a homeless man rarely shaving At least I have somewhat of a baby face and
What season can I get my cake in?
I have no freedom cause the Devil is the chef & im steaming while stuck in the oven baking
Always have been leaning off the edge contemplating If I should jump cause the highs I’ve been fiending wondering if this is my fate and I’ve foreseen in the future thinking of the last date in My calendar of life I’m looking for meaning while my families looking at me pleading & doesn’t have to think of a casket for me to lay in Feeding the legion of demons
in the same mental region I use my mind at night to pray in I’m sick & tired sneezing while freezing
But still needing my girl to be pleasing me
hoping this relationship she’ll stay in
I could be treating her better while still releasing these emotions retreating from repeating the same shit & never repaying Her for the love she’s given so she’s never leaving me cause I’d be alone dry heaving while rereading old texts
with substances relieving stress
with no hope for a life for me to be okay in
I’ve got to do some deleting so I can plant a mental seed in my mind to give after receiving
& never have trouble reaching the goals I’ve been dreaming of since I first wore diapers to play in
Seeing doesn’t have to be the reason for me to be believing even if people commit treason after meeting them Even if I’m weakened
weekday or weekend tryna not to become someone my families lost faith in Proceeding forward while still bleeding cause my thoughts have been misleading me from hearing the words people have been preaching to me to find grace in
