[Verse 1]
Anklet on my ankle, red light blink
Pills on the counter, dishes in the sink
Baby in the crib, crying through the door
Wife in the hallway, crying even more
I’m scrolling through my demons on this cracked phone
Sober for a week, but my hands still roam
Cup in my mind, yeah I taste that burn
Every little fight makes the bottle turn
[Chorus]
House arrest heartbreak, can’t leave this room
Anxiety pacing like it’s got its own shoes
I’m locked in with every bad choice I made
Got a baby and a wife but I still feel caged
House arrest heartbreak, sweat in my sheets
Arguing in whispers so the kid stays asleep
You say I’m here but my eyes look gone
I’m just praying this time I make it to dawn
[Verse 2]
You found my stash in the laundry pile
Said, “Swear on our kid,” and I lied with a smile
My reflection in the oven door looks sick
Black rings, blank stare, heart beating too quick
You hold our son like a safety rope
Say his name soft like a little prayer of hope
I hear you in the kitchen talking to your mom
Saying, “If he slips again, I’m really gone”
[Bridge]
I keep counting all the bottles that I never poured
All the texts I never sent when my brain got bored
All the nights I didn’t drive, just paced these floors
Trying to be the man you were praying for
[Chorus]