FEVER DREAM

I had a feverish dream,

I watched my life come apart at the seams.

I tried to run and I tried to hide,

But I was sick, filled with thoughts of suicide.

When I awoke, I found it was no dream at all,

Someone save me, feel so weak feel so small.

I look in the mirror and see a face that I don’t recognize,

The man I have become, is the man I despise.

I’m losing control of myself again.

Pain hurts worse, when will it end?

I call your name, but you don’t answer me.

Split the wrists and watch them bleed?

Wish I could just make it go away,

And stop myself from slipping into decay.

I remember that sad day,

The clouds were thick, sky dark and grey

And I have far too much pride,

To admit that a piece has died.

Oh I remember that sad day,

You packed your things and went away.

Feel the pain, deep down inside,

I just want to feel Alive…

I’m not the man I use to be,

Can’t seem to find my words, can hardly speak.

A shell of a man, depressed and jaded,

My smiles gone; my faith has faded.

Don’t know why we said goodbye,

Feel like I’m trapped in my own mind.

Feel so lost, and it hurts to breathe,

Never wanted for you to leave.

I remember that sad day,

The clouds were thick, sky dark and grey

And I have far too much pride,

To admit that a piece has died.

Oh I remember that sad day,

You packed your things and went away.

Feel the pain deep down inside,

Just want to feel like I’m Alive.

I remember that sad day,

The clouds were thick, sky dark and grey

And I have far too much pride,

To admit a piece of me has died…