“Peace Cost Too Much

You ever smile in people face…

And they don’t even know what you survived?

Yeah…

Some pain don’t leave…

You just learn how to live with it

And I did that shit alone

(slow guitar fades in — heavy bass underneath)

I done cried real tears in the dark by myself

Fought real demons, had to heal myself

Now it’s fuck fake love and fuck fake friends

I found my peace, I won’t break again

Too many nights I ain’t talk ‘bout pain

Too many scars I can’t wash away

Now I walk like pressure every damn day

And I wish a bitch would try to take my peace away

I was too young dealin’ with grown pain

Smilin’ outside while my soul felt rain

People see attitude, they don’t see hurt

Don’t know how much trauma sit under this shirt

Anxiety high, mind racin’ at night

Tryna hold myself together real tight

And I been violated, touched my spirit wrong

That type pain make a woman cold for so long

I stopped tellin’ people what I go through

‘Cause half them bitches nosy, not loyal

Now I move different, heart guarded up

Still healing but I ain’t giving up

I turned pain into pressure

Lost myself then found better

Now my energy dangerous

And I protect my peace like treasure

I done cried real tears in the dark by myself

Fought real demons, had to heal myself

Now it’s fuck fake love and fuck fake friends

I found my peace, I won’t break again

Too many nights I ain’t talk ‘bout pain

Too many scars I can’t wash away

Now I walk like pressure every damn day

And I wish a bitch would try to take my peace away

Now I talk slick ‘cause I earned my voice

Ain’t no weak bitch, I survived by choice

And these hoes hate ‘cause I glow through pain

Whole lotta strength in this pretty frame

Niggas played games, left wounds too deep

Now I peep fake quick, don’t lose sleep

If the vibe off, I cut ties fast

I ain’t draggin’ dead weight from my past

And I dare a bitch try disturb my calm

Everything I got, I built through storms

So don’t mistake healing for weakness, hoe

I still got survival deep in my soul

I was broken…

But I ain’t stay there

I was lost…

But I came back harder

Now I protect my energy

Mind, body, soul

And anybody play with that…

Can get the fuck on

I done cried real tears in the dark by myself

Fought real demons, had to heal myself

Now it’s fuck fake love and fuck fake friends

I found my peace, I won’t break again

Too many nights I ain’t talk ‘bout pain

Too many scars I can’t wash away

Now I walk like pressure every damn day

And I wish a bitch would try to take my peace away

You can survive hell…

And still come out beautiful

That’s the part they don’t understand