Forgive

Trying to forget about my past, but I bring it up again, saying that I forgive so that I can move on, but it's been far too many years, it's been far too long, still holding this grudge it's locked up inside, betrayed and abandoned has never left my mind, I need someone to save me, save me from myself, and remove these painful memories, make them all come out

I'm afraid to forgive if I have no control

I'm afraid of giving in if it means I'm letting go

Will I get a response if I knock on heavens door?

Does he hear my weeping when I'm crying on the floor?

I hear silence again like when I prayed just before

Am I even capable of forgiving them for what they did

I wish I knew the answer to this

Vengeance and darkness is eating me up, "Be kind to my enemies show them love," sorry but that's way too big a ask, that's way too much, how could I forget about the hurt and forget about the pain, when the memory is too clear engraved in my brain

If I could forgive then what happens to me, I guess I'll be the creation God called me to be

I got a response when I knocked on heavens door

He said "you're not done yet you gotta do more"

The silence got filled it's not what it was before

I guess I'm capable of forgiveness

Thank you God for letting me know this

Remind me you're someone I can turn to someone I can trust

Remind me you're someone who can change me with just one touch

I got a response when I knocked on heavens door (heavens door)

He said "you're not done yet you gotta do more" (do more)

The silence got filled it's not what it was before

I guess I'm capable of forgiveness (ness)

Thank you God for letting me know this

I got a response when I knocked on heavens door

He said "you're not done yet you gotta do more"

The silence got filled it's not what it was before

I guess I'm capable of forgiveness

Thank you God for letting me know this

Know this